a simple plain jane who believes Jesus is her only saviour.
she has an awesome family but in need of salvation.
her current addiction is 2pm but shinhwa will always remain as the love of her life.
| Sunday, October 31, 2004 |
| i'm a pig |
i'm a pig
i'm seriously a pig
been doin nothin the whole day
except eatin and sleepin
oh, i did do somethin besides these
i blog too
that's why i'm seriously a pig
been sleepin the whole afternoon
my econs made me sleep
was readin it, lyin on the couch
and then bcame more and more drowsy
and dreamland, here i go :D
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my favourite nephews are with me rite now
1 is standard 5
1 is standard 3
the older one is goin to be taller than me soon
and he said that i'm short
that makes me very very sad
kays, i admit i'm short, but i know i'm not stupid
guess that's a good thing after all
*sigh*
wish i'm taller, that way i wouldn't be teased by my 11-years old nephew :p
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i wonder what i'll be doin at nite
but i know i got to wake up early tomorrow mornin
looks like my dream goin abroad travellin is vanished
my mom couldn't find the rite time for us to go
why everyone has to be busy at that time of the year??
i really really want a holiday
*actin as a spoil brat rite now* :(
i really really want to go somewhere out of msia |
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A husband and wife decided they needed to use certain phrases to indicate that they wanted to have sex without letting their children in on their sex life.
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The husband told his five year old daughter," Go tell your mommy that daddy needs to type a letter." The child told her mom what her dad had said and her mother responded telling her young child, "Tell your daddy that he can't type a letter right now because there's a red ribbon in the typewriter."
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A few days later mom told her child," Tell daddy that he can type that letter now."
The child told her father and came back to her mother and gave the fathers response, "Daddy said never mind with the typewriter, he already wrote the letter by hand."
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feelin better ever since i'm back to hometown
back to where my dad and mom are
yesterday went to McDonald and eat
amazingly i finished my filet-o-fish
not bad, huh? :)
went to a weddin dinner again yesterday
was able to eat more after that
guess by tomorrow i can eat more than huiyin
hope so lar
but i hvn't eaten my lunch yet
the bride's pretty
but the bridegroom not so handsome
lucky him to marry this beautiful young lady
she's tall too, that makes me so so so envy :p
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was still checkin out my phone model
i want it to be nokia
just love nokia's product
perhaps it's bcos the first phone i use is nokia's product
that's why i dun feel like changin :)
i'm goin to get nokia 6230 by next week
yes!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i'm defintely defintely comin home to admire my new phone :p
haha
i insane addy :p
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~GOOD DAY EVERYONE~
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| Saturday, October 30, 2004 |
| Curtains |
some stupid stories i got from a mail that forwarded by my cousin
read it if u hv time
it's just for u to laugh
but then the story is quite lame so up to u guys
i won't say anythin :p
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A Blonde enters a store that sells curtains. She tells the salesman, "I would like to buy a pair of pink curtains." The salesman assures her that they have a large selection of pink
curtains. He shows her several patterns, but the blond seems to be having a hard time choosing.
Finally she selects a lovely pink floral print. The salesman then asks what size curtains she needs. The blond promptly replies, "fifteen inches."
"Fifteen inches???" asked the salesman. "That sounds very small, what room are they for?" The blond tells him that they aren't for a room, they are for her computer monitor.
The surprised salesman replies, "but Miss, computers do not need curtains!"
The blond says, "Hellllooooooooo .. I've got Windoooooows!" |
| posted by sippy @ 2:45 PM |
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i didn't eat my lunch again
since yesterday dinner, i didn't eat until now
but i did buy choclate milk and drink
been drinkin choclate milk lately
it had bcame my lunch and dinner
dun ask my why i drank, okay?
i dun feel like sayin it out
and dun say i didn't eat anythin
i did buy choclate milk and drank
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i'm a liar
sayin i dun wanna eat my lunch bcos i dun feel like eatin
it's true that's a reason
but the main reason is i dun wanna see him
seein him will just make me worse
i won't be able to eat or drink anythin
that's why i went back to ep
even though we were just few steps away from the shop
i came back to blog
as much as i want
as long as i dun need to face him
i dun feel sad or hurt
just feel lonely only
*
there's sometime i really tot i'm recovered but i'm actually not
lyin to myself, lyin to others sayin that i'm okay
there's nothin wrong with me
my life's fine, everythin's goin on smoothly
i really had that feelin u know
but then dunno why
the sad feelin will just burst out from nowhere
i hate the word "love","couplin" or related to them
i really really dun wanna fall in luv again
some girls are desitiny not to love or be loved by anyone
i'm one of them
so i'll just accept it
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MUET's horrible
been feelin sleepy throughout the test
after finish answerin my readin, i went to sleep
and woke up at the rite time to check the answer
and slept again
i tot i got insomnia, but then it turned out i'm not
is that somethin to be cherished about?
i dunno, i just hope i'll start eatin soon
i dun wan my dad and my mom to be worried about me
i love them most in the world :)
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~GOOD DAY EVERYONE~
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| Friday, October 29, 2004 |
| i'm lost... |
i can't help bloggin
what i can do rite now is only bloggin
bloggin's become a very important part of my life
when i feel lonely
i'll blog or do cross-stitch
at least it helps me to concentrate
doesn't let my mind wander to other places
like what happened just now
almost cryin but didn't
dunno why couldn't cry out
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this whole week i never really hv a happy moment
dun ask me why
just feel lost and lonely
i hate the word "lonely"
and yet it's companyin wherever i go
i'm just so so so pathetic
cp, u're really a loser
and no one will ever pity or cares at u
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my MUET is tomorrow
7:30 in the mornin
should be sleepin by now
but couldn't
could it be i'm gettin insomnia?
dun think it is cos i'm still sleepin in class
lol
no wonder my grade goes deep deep down
hope i won't be flunkin my quizzes again
if not i'm dead
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didn't eat my dinner these few days
only suppers
thanks huiyin and dayze for companyin me
and aaron too, "she's" a super "chick" :P
kiddin aaron, dun angry, kays?
i wonder how long will i stay this way?
hope everythin will be alrite when i come back from sban
i miss my home now
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~GOOD NITE EVERYONE~ |
| posted by sippy @ 11:46 PM |
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| Shopping in Heaven |
I was walking down life's highway, back a while ago.
One day I saw a sign that read,
HEAVEN'S GROCERY STORE
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As I got a little closer
the door opened wide,
I was surprised and curious,
so I decided to go inside.
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I saw a host of Angels,
They were standing everywhere.
One handed me a basket and said,
"My Child, shop with care."
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First, I gathered some PATIENCE.
LOVE was in the same row.
Further down was UNDERSTANDING
(you need that where ever you go).
Then I picked up WISDOM,
and a box of FAITH.
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I wasn't sure what to get next
so a walked a little more,
the aisles were countless,
this was a HUGE store!
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I continued on to find STRENGTH
and COURAGE
to help me run life's race;
By then my basket was getting full,
but I remembered I needed some GRACE .
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I couldn't pass up SALVATION,
for SALVATION was completely free,
so I tried to get enough
to save both you and me.
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PEACE and JOY were plentiful;
they were right on the next shelf.
SONG & PRAISE were hanging near,
so I gladly helped myself.
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Then I started toward the counter
to pay my grocery bill,
for I thought I had everything I needed
to do the MASTER'S will.
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But as I headed to the register
I noticed a display of PRAYER,
Oh how could I forget
with it so splendidly placed there!
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So, as I ended my shopping spree
I grabbed a bottle from the bin,
for I knew when I stepped outside,
I would eventually run into sin.
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Then I asked the angel,
"Now, how much do I owe?"
She answered,"Nothing."
"just take them everywhere you go."
In complete confusion again I asked,
"How much do I REALLY owe?"
She beamed a glorious smile and replied,
"Jesus paid your bill a long time ago."
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Now tell your friends and family
of this well known grocery store,
there is never any kind of limit,
and you can always come back for more.
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this is my all time favourite story
everytime i read it, i'll feel relax and joy
dun ask me why
just have these feelins :p
CITS is always so cold
and without my sweater
i'm shiverin rite now
can see my fingers are frozen =.="
can they on heater here?
what a stupid question i'm askin :)
goin to shop with dayze, aaron and huiyin later
can't wait to leave this place
wanna avoide someone i guess
terrible me :p
hv fun readin this story
even though u read it so many times
still it's meaningful ;)
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~HAPPY BIRTHDAY CARINA & AH SOON~
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~GOOD DAY EVERYONE~
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was kind of frustrated last nite bcos i couldn't blog
couldn't open my page at all
and so is renee and stef
ended up chattin with the others the whole nite
until 3 somthin
not bad, rite?
at least got somethin to do
if not i'll be bored and start cryin
tears were fallin easily nowadays :p
but didn't cry for a few days addy
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last nite was watchin the hong kong drama series
it's somethin like charlie angels kind of show
copy them i guess :)
there's this girl inside the show
the way she treated her bf
reminded me of my relationship
and in the end
the guy broke up with her
serves the girl rite
serves me rite
somethin could never be saved once the damage has done
could only hope that u're able to turn back the time
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these few days hv been rainin
not heavily
just drizzlin
walkin in the rain has become my habit
i dun like to walk with umbrella
it helped me to be more awake
so that i won't be wanderin off somewhere
i used to hate the feelin of it
now i'm gettin used to it
guess people will change as time goes by
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still wanna wish my bro "happy birthday"
even though it's over by now
zi bin, happy birthday!!!!!!!!!!!!! :)
dun think u're readin my blog
but still wanna wish u lar
all the best in everythin and wish u will get everythin u want :D
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~GOOD NITE EVERYONE~ |
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| a touchin story : part 2 :D |
Hubby moved into mother's room and came home every
night with a strong liquor smell on him.
And me, I am buried under the guilt and self pity and could hardly breathe.
I wanted to explain to him, tell him that we are going
to have our baby soon, but each time, I saw the dead look in his eyes,
all the words I have at the brink of my mouth just fell back in.
I had rather he hit me real hard or give me a big and thorough
scolding though none of these events happening had been my fault at all.
Many days of suffocating silence went by and as the days went by,
hubby came home later and later.
The deadlock between us continues,
we were living together like strangers who don't know each other.
I am like the dead knot in his heart.
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One day, I passed by a western restaurant, looking into the glass window,
I saw hubby and a girl sitting facing each other
and he very lightly brushed her hair for her, I understood what it meant.
After recovering from that moment of shock,
I entered the restaurant, stood in front of my hubby and stared hard at him,
not atear in my eyes.
I have nothing to say to him, and there is no need to say anything.
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The girl looked at me, looks at hubby, stands up and wanted to go,
hubby stretched out his hand and stopped her.
He stared back at me, challenging me.
I can only hear my slow heart beat, beating, one by one as if at the brink of death.
I eventually backed down, if I had stood there any longer,
I will collapse together with the baby inside me.
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That night, he did not come home,
he had chosen to use that as a way to indicate to me:
Following mother's death so did our love for each other.
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He did not come home anymore after that.
Sometimes, when I returned home from work,
I can tell that the cupboard had been touched -
he had returned to take some of his stuff.
I no longer wish to call him;
the initial desire to explain everything to him vanished.
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I lived alone; I go for my medical checkups alone,
my heart breaks again and again every time I see a guy
carefully helping his wife through the physical examination.
My office colleagues hinted to me to consider aborting the baby, I told them.
No, I will not.
I insisted on having this baby, perhaps it is my way of repaying
mother for causing her death.
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One day, I came home and I saw hubby sitting in the living room.
The whole house was filled with cigarette smoke.
On the coffee table, there was this piece of paper.
I know what it is all about without even looking at it.
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In the two months plus of living alone,
I have gradually learned to find peace within myself.
I looked at him, removed my hat and said:
"You wait a while, I will sign."
He looked at me, mixed feelings in his eyes, just like mine.
As I hang up my coat, I keep repeating to myself
"You cannot cry, you cannot cry..."
my eyes hurt terribly, but I refused to let tears come out from there.
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After I hung up my coat, hubby's eyes stared fixed
at my bulging tummy.
I smiled, walked over to the coffee table and pull the paper towards me.
Without even looking at what it says,
I signed my name on it and pushed the paper to him.
"LD, you are pregnant?"
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Since mother's accident, this is the first time he spoke to me.
I could not control my tears any further and they fell like
raindrops.
I said: "Yes, but its ok, you can leave now."
He did not go, in the dark,we sat, facing each other.
Hubby slowly moved over me, his tears wet the blanket.
In my heart, everything seems so far away,
so far that even if I sprint, I could never reach them.
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I cannot remember how many times he repeated "sorry" to me,
I had originally thought that I would forgive him, but now I can't.
In the western restaurant, in front of that girl,
that cold look in his eyes, I will never forget, ever.
We have drawn such deep scares in each other's heart.
For me, its unintentional; for him, totally intentional.
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I had been waiting for this moment of reconciliation,
but I realized now what had gone past is gone forever and could not be repeated.
Other than the thought of the baby inside me that would bring some warmth to my heart,
I am totally cold towards him, I no longer eat anything he buys for me,
I don't take any presents from him and I stopped talking to him.
From the moment I signed on that piece of paper,
marriage and love had vanished from my heart.
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Sometimes, hubby will try to come into the bedroom,
but when he walks in, I will walk out to the living room.
He had no choice but to sleep in mother's room.
At night, from his room, I can hear light sounds of groaning, I kept quiet.
This used to be his trick; last time, whenever I ignore him,
he would fake illness and I will surrender and find out what is wrong with him,
he would then grab me and laugh.
He has forgotten that last time;
I cared for him and am concerned because there is love,
but now, what is there between us?
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Hubby's groaning came on and off continuing all the
way till baby was born.
Almost everyday, he would buy something for the baby,
infant products, children products and books that kids like to read.
Bags and bags of it stacked inside his room till it is full.
I know he is trying to use this to reach out to me,
but I am no longer moved by his actions.
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He has no choice but to lock himself in his room and I can hear his typing away on his computer keyboard,
maybe he is now addicted to web surfing,
but none of that matters to me anymore.
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It was sometime towards the end of spring in the following year,
one late night, I screamed because of a sudden stomach pain,
hubby came rushing into the room,
its like he did not change and sleep,
and had been waiting for this moment.
He carried me and ran down the stairs, stopped a car,
holding my hand very tightly and kept wiping the sweat off my brow,
throughout the journey to the hospital.
Once we reached the hospital, he carried me and hurried into the delivery suite.
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Lying the back of his skinny but warmth body, a thought crossed my mind:
In my lifetime, who else would love me as much as he did?
He held the delivery suite door opened and watch me go in,
his warm eyes caused me to managed a smile at him despite my contraction pain.
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Coming out of the delivery room, hubby looked at our son, and me,
his eyes full of tears with joy and he kept smiling.
I reached out and touched his hand.
Hubby looked at me, smiling and then he slowly collapsed onto the floor.
I cried out for him in pain...
He smiled, but without opening that tired eyes of his...
I had thought that I would never shed any tear for him,
but the truth is,
I have never felt a deeper pain cutting through my body at that moment.
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Doctor said that by the time hubby discovered he had liver cancer,
it was already in terminal stage and it was a miracle that he managed to last this long.
I asked the doctor when did he first discover he had cancer?
Doctor said about 5 months ago and consoled me saying:"
Prepare for his funeral."
I disregarded the nurse's objection and rushed home
I went into his room and checked his computer,
and a suffocating pain hits me.
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Hubby's cancer was discovered 5 months ago, his groaning was real, and I had thought that...
the computer showed over 200 thousand words he wrote for our son:
"Son, just for you, I have persisted, to be
able to take a look at you before I fall, is my biggest wish now...
I know that in your life, you will have many happiness and maybe some setbacks,
if only I can accompany you throughout that journey, how nice would it be.
But daddy now no long has that chance.
Daddy has written inside here all the possible difficulties and problems
you may encounter during your lifetime,
when you meet with these problems,
you can refer to daddy's suggestion...
Son, after writing these 200 thousand words,
I feel as if I have accompanied you through your life journey.
To be honest, daddy is very happy.
Do love your mother, she has suffered, she is the one who loves
you most and also the one who loves me most..."
From play school to primary school, to secondary,
university, to work and even in dealing with questions of love,
everything big and small was written there.
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Hubby has also written a letter for me:
"My dear, to marry you is my biggest happiness,
forgive me for the pain I have caused you, forgive me for not telling you my illness,
because I want to see you be in a joyful mood waiting for the arrival of our baby...
My dear, if you cried, it means that you have forgiven me and I would smile,
thank you for loving me...
These presents, I'm afraid I cannot give them to our son personally,
could you help me to give some of them to him every year,
the dates on what to give when are all written on the packaging..."
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Going back to the hospital, hubby is still in coma.
I brought our son over and place him beside him.
I said: "Open your eyes and smile,
I want our son to remember being in the warmth of your arms..."
He struggled to open his eyes and managed a weak smile.
Our son still in his arms was happily waving his tiny hands in the air.
I press the button on the camera
and the sound of the shutter rang through the
air as tears slowly rolled down my face...
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The end...
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i'm so glad that people actually read the story i posted
ching hui, my friend from debate group
she read this story and asked me to email her the whole thing
i didn't cos i want to let her wait for the continuation
haha... so bad of me, rite?
i'm becomin meaner and meaner
yeah, "meanmeancp" is on the way
dun get close to her or you'll be doomed :p
another person is lucius
thanks for readin the stories in my blog
anyone elses that enjoy it?
do let me know, kays?
if not i dunno wat's the purpose of me puttin up stories here
tak ada "semangat" nak cari cerita lagi lar
haha :D
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~HAPPY BDAY DAYZE~
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~GOOD DAY EVERYONE~
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Deana Carter - Once Upon A December (From Anastasia Soundtrack)
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Dancing bears
Painted wings
Things I almost remember
And a song someone sings
Once upon a December
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BRIDGE:
Someone holds me safe and warm
Horses prance through a silver storm
Figures dancing gracefully
Across my memory
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CHORUS:
Far away
Long ago
Glowing dim as an ember
Things my heart used to know
Once upon a December
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Bridge
Far away
Long ago
Glowing dim as an ember
Things my heart used to know
Things it yearns to remember
And a song someone sings
Once upon a December
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i am here bloggin again
i miss CF tonite
got debate meetin and thursday got debate match
dunno whether i'm able to preprare the debate in time or not
*puzzlin and confusin look*
dunno in the futrue will i be able to go to CF often or not
at least for this semester
guess my attention will be given more to debate group
i need to go to some place that i can keep my mind busy
debate group is definitely the best place for me to go :)
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mom called me
dunno why i feel like cryin again
mayb bcos i miss her a lot
i want to be with her rite now
haven't been seein her for 1 week plus
looks like i shouldn't go abroad to study
if not i'll be collasped
i'm really useless
without my mom and dad there for me
i'm not able to do anythin :p
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i'm in love with this song
"Once upon in December" -- a soundtrack from Disney's Anatasia
i fall in love this song ever since the incident
cos the song kind of slow and sad
i just can't help it but listenin to it continuously
even rite now when i'm recoverin
i still can't help but lovin this song
just love to listen to disney's soundtracks
the songs are so sweet and nice
may sound childish to u but i just have this likeness for disney
it mayb bcos i grow up with disney cartoons from young :)
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAYZE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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| A touching story |
Very touching, can move you to tears...
Take 10 minutes of uninterrupted time to read this till the end.
It's really touching...
A fatal misunderstanding and the person who love me the most in this world is gone forever.
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This is a true story, taken from "Family" (dictated by LD, edited by LSX, translated by SaFe).
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Cruel misunderstandings one after another disrupted the blissful footsteps to our family.
Our original intend of having Mother enjoy some quiet and peaceful moments
in her remaining years with us went terribly wrong
as destiny's secret is finally revealed at a price,
everything became too late.
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Just two years after our marriage, hubby brought up the idea of
asking Mother to move from the rural hometown
and spend her remaining years with us.
Hubby's father passed away while he was still very young.
Mother endured much hardship and struggled all on her own to provide for him,
see him through to a university degree.
You could say that she suffered a great deal and did everything you could
expect of a woman to bring hubby to where he is today.
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I immediately agreed and started packing the spare room,
which has a balcony facing the South to let her enjoy the sunshine and plant some greenery.
Hubby stood in the bright room,
and suddenly just picked me up and started spinning round and round.
As I begged him t put me down he said:
"Lets go fetch mother."
Hubby is tall and big sized and I love to rest on his chest and enjoy the feeling
that he could pick me up at any moment put the tiny me into his pockets.
Whenever we have an argument and both refuses to back down,
he would pick me up and spin me over his head continuously until I surrender and beg for mercy.
I became addicted to this kind of panic-joy feeling.
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Mother brought along her countryside habits
For example; I am so used to buying flowers to decorate the living room,
she could not stand it and would comment:
"I do not know how you young people spend your money,
why do you buy flowers for? You also can't eat the flowers!"
I smiled and said: "Mum, with flowers in the house, our mood will also become better."
Mother continues to grumble away, and hubby smiled:
"Mum, this is a city-people's habit; slowly you will get use to it."
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Mother stopped saying anything.
But every time thereafter,
whenever I came home with flowers, she would ask me how much it costs.
I told her and she would shake her head and express displeasure.
Sometimes, when I come home with lots of shopping bags,
she would ask each and every item how much they cost,
I would tell her honestly and she would get even more upset about it.
Hubby playfully pinched my nose and said:
"You little fool, just don't tell her the full price of everything would solve it."
There begins the friction to our otherwise happy lifestyle.
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Mother hates it most when hubby wakes up early to prepare the breakfast.
In her view, how could the man of the house cook for the wife?
At the breakfast table, mother facial _expression is always like the dark clouds before a thunderstorm
and I would pretend not to notice.
She would use her chopsticks and make a lot of noise with it as her silent protest.
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As I am a dance teacher in the Children's Palace and is exhausted from a long day of dancing around,
I do not wish to give up the luxury of that additional few minutes in the comfort of my bed
and hence I turned a deaf ear to all the protest mother makes.
From time to time, mother would help out with some housework,
but soon her help created additional work for me.
For example: she would keep all kinds of plastic bags accumulating them so that she sell them later on,
and that resulted in our house being filled with all the trash bags;
she would scrimp on dish washing detergent when helping to wash the dishes and so as not to hurt her feelings,
I would quietly wash them again.
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One day, late at night, mother saw me quietly washing the dishes,
and "Bam" she slams her bedroom door and cried very loudly in her room.
Hubby was placed in a difficult position,
and after that, he did not speak to me for that entire night.
I pretended to be a spoilt child, tried acting cute, but he totally ignored me.
I got mad and asked him: "What did I do wrong?"
Hubby stared at me and said:
"Can't you just give in to her once? We couldn't possibly die eating from a bowl however unclean it is, right?"
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After that incident, for a long period of time, mother did not speak to me
and you can feel that there is a very awkward feeling hanging in the house.
During that period of cold war, hubby was caught in dilemma as to who to please.
In order to stop her son from having to prepare breakfast,
mother took on the "all important" task of preparing breakfast without any prompting.
At the breakfast table, mother would look at hubby happily eating his breakfast and cast that
reprimanding stare at me
for avoid the embarrassing breakfast situation, I resorted to buying my own breakfast on my way to work.
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That night, while in bed, hubby was a little upset and asked me:
"LD,is it because you think that mum's cooking is not clean that's why you chose not to eat at home?"
He then turned his back on me and left me alone in tears as feeling of unfairness overwhelmed me.
After some time, hubby sighed:
"LD, just for me, can you have breakfast at home?"
I am left with no choice but to return to the breakfast table.
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The next morning, I was having porridge prepared by mother and I
felt a sudden churn in my stomach and everything inside seem to be rushing up my throat.
I tried to suppress the urge to throw up but I couldn't.
I threw down the bowl and rushed into the washroom and vomited everything out.
Just as I was catching my breath, I saw mother crying and grumbling very loudly in her dialect,
hubby was standing at the washroom doorway staring at me with fire burning in his eyes.
I opened my mouth but no words came out of it, I really didn't mean it.
We had our very first big fight that day;
mother took a look at us, then stood up and slowly made her way out of the house.
Hubby gave me a final stare in the eye and followed mother down the stairs.
*
For three days, hubby did not return home, not even a phone call.
I was so furious, since mother arrived;
I had been trying my best and putting up with her, what else do you want me to do?
For no reason, I keep having the feeling to throw up and I simply have not appetite for food,
coupled with all the events happening at home,
I was at the low point in my life.
Finally, a colleague said:
"LD, you look terrible, you should go and see a doctor."
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The doctor confirmed that I am pregnant.
Now it became clear to me why I threw up that fateful morning,
a sense of sadness floated through that otherwise happy news.
Why didn't hubby and mother who had been through this before,
thought of the possibility of this being the reason that day?
At the hospital entrance, I saw my hubby standing there.
It had only been three days, but he looked haggard.
I had wanted to turn and leave, but one look at him and my heart soften,
I couldn't resist and called out to him. He followed my voice and finally found me but he
pretended that he doesn't know me;
he has that disgusted look in his eyes that cut right through my heart.
*
I told myself not to look at him anymore, and hail a cab.
At that moment, I have such a strong urge inside me to shout to my hubby:
"Darling, I am having your baby!" and have him lift me up and spin me round in circles of joy.
What I wanted didn't happen and as I sat in the cab, my tears started rolling down.
Why? Why our love couldn't even withstand the test of one fight?
Back home, I lay on the bed thinking about my hubby, and the disgusted look in his eyes.
I cried and wet the corner of the blanket.
*
That night, sound of the drawers opening woke me up.
I switched on the lights and I saw hubby with tears rolling down his face.
He was removing the money.
I stared at him in silence; he ignored me, took the bank deposit book and some money and left the house.
Maybe he really intends to leave me for good.
What a rational man, so clear-cut in love and money matters.
I gave a few dried laugh and tears starting streaming down again.
*
The next day, I did not go to work.
I wanted to clear this out and have a good talk with hubby.
I reached his office and his secretary gave me a weird look and said:
"Mr. Tan's mother had a traffic accident and is now in the hospital."
I stood there in shock.
I rushed to the hospital and by the time I found hubby, mother had already passed away.
Hubby did not look at me, his face was expressionless.
*
I looked at mother's pale white and thin face and I couldn't control the tears in my eyes.
My god, how could this happen?
Throughout the funeral, hubby didn't say a single word to me,
with only the occasional disgusted stare at me.
I only managed to find out brief facts about the accident from other people.
That day, after mother left the house, she walked in dazed toward the bus stop,
apparently intending to go back to her old house back in the countryside.
As hubby ran after her, she tried to walk faster and as she tried to cross the street,
a public bus came and hit her...
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I finally understood how much hubby must hate me,
if I had not thrown up that morning, if we had not quarreled, if...
In his heart, I am indirectly the killer of his mother.
*
finally finish edited this story
not really editin it but puttin it in a nicer order so people can read easier :p
used up the entire afternoon
but i also chat with friends the same time lar
dan said men are good actors, women are good actresses
that's why even though how pain the heart is
it's never show in the public
i dunno whether to agree with him or what
i really dunno
but one thing i know is that i hv to forget my relationship with him as fast as possible
so that i won't be thinkin and missin him anymore
thanks dan for chattin with me
learn somethin from you :)
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this is only the first part of the family
quite long rite??
there's 2nd part
i'll update it tomorrow
i'm gettin tired starin in front of the computer screen :)
hope u guys enjoy it
for those who read addy
sorry lar
can just skip this story :D
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~HAVE A NICE CF LATER~
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| why i'm bloggin... |
i wanna blog so badly
i dunno what i can do besides bloggin
that's why i'm bloggin rite now
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CITS lab is kind of cold
i'm wearin a sweater rite now
maybe bcos i'm sittin under the air-conditioner
i'm given a task to find for the clips and images for the A.I
to insert into our PCA Assignment
and now instead of findin them
i'm bloggin here
but if i dun blog
my heart's awful
that's why i'm wastin my time bloggin here
i memang "siao" addy lar :p
*
didn't eat much for my lunch again
been forcin myself to eat
but i can't
that's why i ate sweet instead
VITA-C Mix-flavor one :)
i love that sweet
the sweetness overcome the sadness in my heart... :)
ready to read the touchin story?
some of u might hv read
but neway i'm goin to post
so hv to bear with me :D
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| posted by sippy @ 2:50 PM |
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i just only realized that
my problem, the things i'm goin through rite now
is really nothin compare to other people's prob
everyone has their own probs
just that they didn't say it out
compare to my prob
mine's as tiny as a grain of sand
theirs can be as huge as a mountain
so what's wrong with me
feelin sad bcos i lost a relationship
lots of people experienced that
and they didn't even blog it out like me
what am i doin?
pityin myself, tellin the whole world that i'm goin through the traumas of breakin up?
perhaps like what ah soon said
i hv a feelin that's why i'm feelin sad rite now
if i dun hv
then i'm a robot
drinkin petroleum to survive
the thought makes me disgusted
no way am i gonna drink that
i rather be a human bein that can enjoy delicious food
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can't eat much nowadays
ever since the day that i broke up with him
can't eat much
it's partly bcos of him
my tummy is filled with air
cos i didn't eat anythin for a whole day
hardly drank water too
so after that, i can't eat anythin
except drinkin water and eat stuffs like fries
that's what i had been eatin for my last nite's dinner
coke and fries
it's a pity that i can't eat anythin
MICORS actually treats us with with SFC (the food there sucks anyway :p)
too bad, it's such a waste for me
but i did hv fun joinin them
with khan ling's company
was crackin jokes, teasin each other and askin IQ question
life's that fill with laughter definitely helps u to live longer :D
thanks to all my friends too
u guys are bein so supportive lar
but this time i won't cry cos no more tears left :p
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~GOOD MORNIN EVERONE~
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it's 3:07 am rite now
and i'm not sleepin again
i can only go online on this hour
where the connection will not stop
where i can online as long and as much as i want
that's why i dun wanna sleep...
*
dunno why my heart still hurt
but compare to afternoon
it's a lot a lot and a lot better now
i'm recoverin, i'm really really recoverin
that's why i'm not cryin anymore
no more sad tears for me
mayb once or twice
but i'll make sure it's just 1 or 2 drops
i hv fun this mornin u know
with dayze and huiyin
we went yam cha
they brightened up my day
i crapped a lot
they eased up my mind
divertin my attention to other stuffs
so that i won't be missin him
thanks gals, u gals are great :)
luv ya <3
there's somethin i wan to admit
when i went yam cha with them
even though i was crappin all the way
i did think of him and miss him
whenever i said the word "collect"
but this time no more tears at all
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| Monday, October 25, 2004 |
| CORPORATE LESSON # 5 |
There were these four guys,
Russian President Putin,
Germany's Chancellor Kohl,
American President Bush and
French Premiere Chirac
who found this small genie bottle.
When they rubbed the bottle, a genie appears.
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Thankful that the four guys had released him out of the bottle,
he said, "Next to you all are four swimming pools,
I will give each of you a wish.
When you run towards the pool and jump,
you shout what you want the pool of water to become,
then your wish will come true."
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The French Premiere Chirac wanted to start.
He ran towards the pool, jumped and shouted "WINE".
The pool immediately changed into a pool of wine.
The Frenchman was so happy swimming and drinking from the pool.
Next is the Russian President Putin turn,
he did the same and shouted, "VODKA" and immersed himself into a pool of vodka.
The German was next and he jumped and shouted, "BEER".
He was so contented with his beer pool.
The last is the American President Bush.
He was running towards the pool when suddenly he steps on a banana peel.
He slipped towards the pool and shouted,
"SHIT!!!!!!!........."
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Lesson V: Mind your language, you never know what it
will land you in.
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the end of Corporate lessons
learn somethin from here?
hope u did :)
the next story will be from janet's mail
she got this very touchin story that made me cried :p
so hope u guys will let ur tears out readin the next comin story ;)
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~HAVE FUN EVERYONE~
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| posted by sippy @ 9:29 PM |
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sorry for writin a chinese entry
but i feel like expressin my feelins out
i'm usin chinese bcos not much people understand it :p
besides this is my mother language
my most familiar and well used language
sorry... :)
没有他的日子我真的不知该怎么过
以前和他在一起的时候
起码我可以等他回来
可是现在我已经不能也没有权力这样做了
笑我吧 笑我傻吧
我一直以为没有他我可以过得很好
但是事实刚好相反
我完全不知自己在做什么
生活少了一个中心 一个依赖
看来是我太高估自己了
我不怎么适合谈恋爱吧
我这次认栽了
伤得深了
理智的头脑告诉我不要再哀伤下去了
但心情怎样也恢复不了
也许我需要时间去舔干自己的伤口吧
时候到了它自然也会成为过去
不会再伤到我了
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| posted by sippy @ 9:16 PM |
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just finish my MUET speakin test
guess i kind of flunked it
cannot put full concentration in it
mind's wanderin somewhere out there...
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was quarantined in the room with no one to talk to
damn bored so i slept instead
was tootired bcos i lack of sleep last nite
dunno why just can't sleep
saw renee outside when i was inside the room
renee, u still owe me a hug ;)
*
i'm just gonna wait until my MUET over
and go back to my parents
i need them a lot rite now
i really really miss them...
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| difficult to fall asleep -- what do u call?? |
i can't sleep
no matter how hard i tried
i just can't sleep
dun get me wrong
it's not bcos of him
totally not
it just that i can't sleep at all
i had my MUET speakin test tomorrow mornin at 7:30
totally not prepare
but then i just can't sleep rite now
this is gettin ridiculous
how i wish i can just lie back on my bed and sleep
then i'll surely thank GOD
mayb, mayb GOD did answer my prayer
*
i feel calmer rite now
i told myself from now onwards, i'm not goin to cry
i hv cried for this year's supply
that's why no more sad tears for me, only the happy one
dude and dudettes out there
who show ur supports
thanks all of u
my heart is fill with warmness
thanks is all i can say :)
goodbye lucius, thanks for the good old days and thanks for everythin
i'm goin to leave everythin sad behind and go on with a new life from now on
i know i will survive ^_^
~GOOD NITE EVERYONE~
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| Sunday, October 24, 2004 |
| CORPORATE LESSON # 4 |
A young executive was leaving the office at 6 PM when he found the CEO standing in front of a
shredder with a piece of paper in his hand.
"Listen," said the CEO,
"this is a very sensitive and important document and my secretary has left.
Can you make this thing work?"
"Certainly, Sir" said the young executive.
He turned the machine on,
inserted the paper,
and pressed the start button.
"Excellent, excellent!" said the CEO as his paper disappeared inside the machine.
"I just need one copy."
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Lesson IV - Never, never assume that your BOSS knows everything.
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this is somethin for u to laugh
somethin for me to smile at times like this
hope u guys enjoy readin this
there's one more corporate lesson
u guys will like it
i'll make sure of that :D |
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i never never wanna fall in love again
i hv this phobia for love rite now
mayb will take hours
days
months
or even years to recover
but i guess i deserve it
i deserve this whole thing that happen
that's why i'm cryin again
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i hv been cryin just now
talkin to lucius
it did make me feel better
but then i won't believe in love again
i told my mom it's over
didn't state what's over
but my mom understand what i mean
it makes me cryin again
but i guess give me a week or 2
i'll surely be alrite again
but i learnt a lesson
never ever hv feelins for guys anymore
from now onwards, i'll never fall in love again
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| posted by sippy @ 10:22 PM |
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i never been goin to church for my own
i'm always goin there bcos there's someone to ask me goin
sometimes i dun understand the reason of me becomin a chirstian
is it bcos i truly believe in Christ
or is it someone ask me to do so
i need some time to think
to think why should i go to church
to think why should i becomin a christian
that's why i'm not goin to church
cos if i ever go back there
the reason should be i want to go, long to go and hunger to go
listenin to the pastor's preachin
u may disappoint with me, look down upon me or anythin u like
i just dun care about anythin rite now...
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it's 3 am late at nite
i'm not sleepin yet
why is that so?
i dunno
there's like 101 things in my mind
buggin me, forcin me to complete them
i wanna complete but then things aren't work out the way i am
i'm not goin to church tomorrow
dun feel like goin and doubt whether i can wake up or not
from last time until now
i never went to church bcos i wanted to do so
i'm always goin bcos of someone
but then there's no reason for me to go anymore
so i'll stop goin to church i guess...
*
rite now i just wanna hv some quiet moments with myself
think back all the stuffs i did
think where GOD is all the time
think why i'm born into this earth
just plainly think some stupid stuff
i guess i really should be goin to sleep
eyes just can't open
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~GOOD NITE EVERYONE~ |
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For all the guys out there, let\'s ponder & reflect
about the message below, and for the ladies you can share this with
your love ones...
A girl in love asked her boyfriend..
Girl (g): Tell me... who do you love most in this
world?
Boy (b): You, of course!
(g): In your heart, what am I to you?
(b): The boy thought for a moment and looked intently in her eyes and said,
"You are my rib. In the Bible, it was said that God saw that Adam was
lonely, during his sleep; God took one of Adam's rib and created Eve.
Every man has been searching for his missing rib, only when you find
the woman of your life; you'll no longer feel the lingering ache in your
heart."
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After their wedding, the couple had a sweet and happy life for a while.
However, the youthful couple began to drift apart due to the busy schedule of life
and the never-ending worries of daily problems....their life became mundane....
All the challenges posed by the harsh realities of life began to gnaw away
their dreams and love for each other...
The couple began to have more quarrels and each quarrel became more heated..
One day, after the quarrel, the girl ran out of the
house....
At the opposite side of the road, she shouted, "You don't love me!"
The boy hated her childishness and out of impulse, retorted,
"Maybe, it was a mistake for us to be together! You were never my missing rib!"
Suddenly, she turned quiet and stood there for a long while....
He regretted what he said but words spoken are like thrown away water,
you can never take it back.
With tears, she went home to pack her things and was determined in breaking-up.
Before she left the house, "If I'm really not your missing rib, please lt me go.....
She continued, "It is less painful this way... let us go on our separate ways and search for our own
partners..."
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Five years went by....
He never remarried but he had tried to find out about her lifeindirectly......
She had left the country and back....
She had married a foreigner and divorced.....
He felt anguished that she never waited for him.
In the dark and lonely night, he lit his cigarette and felt the lingering ache in his heart.
He couldn't bring himself to admit that he was missing her..
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One day, they finally met....
At the airport, a place where there were many reunions and good-byes....
He was going away on a business trip.
She was standing there alone, with just the security door separating them.
She smiled at him gently.
(b): How are you?
(g): I'm fine. How about you... Have you found your missing rib?
(b): No.
(g): I'll be flying to New York in the next flight.
(b): I'll be back in 2 weeks time. Give me a call when you are back...
You know my number... Nothing has changed.
With a smile, she turned around and waved good-bye..
Good-bye.....
One week later, he heard of her death.
She had perished in New York.
In the event that shocked the world..
Midnight..... Once again, he lit his cigarette.....
And like before, he felt the lingering ache in his heart....
He finally knew, she was the missing rib that he had carelessly broken....
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Sometimes, people say things out of moments of fury.....
Most often than not, the outcome could be disastrous and detrimental....
We vent our frustrations 99% at our loved ones....
And even though we know that we ought to "think twice and act wisely",
it's often easier said than done.
Things happen each day, many of which are beyond our control....
Let us treasure every moment and everyone in our lives....
Tomorrow may never come; give and accept what you have today.
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the first time i read this i'm only touched
but rite now when i reread it
i actually wanna cry
but this feelins will just fade soon
i know it will be
please do read this and think
that's the reason i post it here
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| Saturday, October 23, 2004 |
| everythin's over |
finally everythin's over for me
my mid-term test over
my shoppin's over
my relationship with lucius also over
dun worry about me
i'm not sad
i truly appreciate this relationship
it helps me to grow
glad it ends in a peaceful way
he and i are just friends rite now
mayb that's what i hv been wantin
and mayb that's what i need
just hope i'll survive well without him
guess it's really time for me to be independant :D
i will stay fine... :)
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*groan*
i'm havin headache rite now
feel like cryin
i can't stand the pain
i'm really cryin out now
how i wish mom and dad are here
i miss them a lot
mom and dad, can i go back to seremban now?
i miss u guys.... :( |
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| Put the glass down |
A lecturer was giving a lecture to his student on
stress management.
He raised a glass of water and asked the
audience, "How heavy do you think this glass of
water is?"
The students' answers ranged from 20g to
500gm.
"It does not matter on the absolute weight. It
depends on how long you hold it.
If I hold it for a minute, it is OK.
If I hold it for an hour, I will have an ache in my right
arm.
If I hold it for a day, you will have to call an
ambulance.
It is the exact same weight, but the longer I hold it,
the heavier it becomes."
"If we carry our burdens all the time, sooner or
later, we will not be able to carry on, the burden
becoming increasingly heavier."
"What you have to do is to put the glass down,
rest for a while before holding it up again."
We have to put down the burden periodically, so
that we can be refreshed and are able to carry on.
So before you return home from work tonight, put
the burden of work down. Don't carry it back
home. You can pick it up tomorrow.
Whatever burdens you are having now on your
shoulders, let it down for a moment if you can.
Pick it up again later when you have rested...
Rest and relax.
Life is short, enjoy it!!
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copy this from friendster's bulletin board
that shows i'm such a copycat
haha :D
i hv seen this story several times and love it
that's why postin in my blog ;)
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~GOOD DAY EVERYONE~
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| CORPORATE LESSON #3 |
Usually the junior executives and staff of the company generally
play football;
the middle level managers are more interested
in tennis
and the top management usually has a preference
for Golf.
FINDING: As you go up the corporate ladder,
the balls reduce in size.
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kind of short, rite?
hv my paper last nite
it's quite okay since i hv been forcin myself to study
i'm never a hardworkin person, always burnin the midnite oil
so engineerin course never cross my mind
i know i can never cope up with it
so be glad that i'm in management
another thing i choose management is the course they provided
not much about maths
i hv terrible records in maths
used to be my favourite subject
until i learned add maths
which required a lot of practices
so u can guess what kind of results i got
from that onwards, i dun like to deal with numbers >.<
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read a mail from janet yesterday
i just love readin forwardin mail :D
i cried readin that story
it was really really touchin
i know it's silly but i can't help it
maybe i'll post it here after the corporate story finish
dun feel like postin it rite now
still thinkin how many person actually enjoy these stories :)
i'm waitin for stef to write the novel out
it should be wonderful
i hvn't finish watchin "Whisper of Hope" yet
so i dun really know what it is truly about
perhaps i'll finish watchin it today
just love saturday :D
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| Friday, October 22, 2004 |
| CORPORATE LESSON # 2 |
A priest was driving along and saw a nun on the side of the road, he stopped and offered her a lift whichshe gladly accepted.
She got in and crossed her legs, forcing her gown to open and reveal a lovely leg.
The priest had a look and nearly had an accident.
After controlling the car, he stealthily slid his hand up her leg.
The nun looked at him and immediately said, "Father, remember psalm 129?"
The priest was flustered and apologised profusely.
He forced himself to remove his hand.
However, he was unable to remove his eyes from her leg.
Further on, while changing gear, he let his handslide up her leg again.
The nun once again said, "Father, remember psalm 129?"
Once again the priest apologised.
"Sorry sister, but the mind is weak."
Arriving at the convent, the nun got out, gave him a meaningful glance and went on her way.
On his arrival at the church, the priest rushed to retrieve a bible and looked up psalm 129.
It Said, "Go forth and seek; further up, you will find glory."
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MORAL OF THE STORY: Always be well informed in yourjob; or, you might miss great opportunities!
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this is just a story
not tryin to insult anyone, kays?
just for u to hv a laugh
but if it's offendin u please tell me so
i won't paste this kind of story anymore
promise *with my most sincere look*
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havin an exam later at 8:30
still can't help bloggin rite here
hope i will score well in this paper
been studyin hard
pass is a definite
but not scorin high
if i didn't score high
i'm sure turnin into "crycrycp" :p
haha :D
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| CORPORATE LESSON # 1. |
A man is getting into the shower just as his wife is finishing up her shower when the doorbell rings.
After a few seconds of arguing over which one should go and answer the doorbell,
the wife gives up, quickly wraps herself up in a towel and runs downstairs.
When she opens the door, there stands Bob, the next door neighbor. Before she says a word,
Bob says, "I'll give you $ 800 just to drop that towel that you have on". After thinking for a
moment,
the woman drops her towel and stands naked in front of Bob.
Bob has a close look at her for a few seconds, hands over $800 and quietly leaves.
Confused, but excited about her good fortune, the woman wraps back up in the towel and goes upstairs.
When she gets back to the bathroom, her husband asks from the shower "Who was that?"
"It was Bob the next door neighbour," she replies.
"Great," the husband says, "did he say anything about the! $ 800 he owes me?"
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MORAL OF THE STORY: Share critical credit---information with your stakeholders to prevent avoidable exposure!
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different from the previous story i post rite?
another story that i got from a mail my friend forwarded
remember some of u guys sayin that u dun open all those forwarded mails
dun get me wrong, i'm not tryin to criticise or anythin
i just wanna say i open every forwarded mail and enjoyin readin them :)
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i hope u guys will enjoy this story as well
not as meaningful as the previous 2
but will surely plant u a big grin on ur face
i'm seein them now :)
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| Thursday, October 21, 2004 |
| easily irritaed person |
i'm easily bein irritated by a lot of stuffs
by the weather
by the rules
by the internet connections
by the food
by the ......
lazy to state it all here,it's uncountable
this makes me wanna go some place that there's no one elses except me
mayb an island will be a good choice
then i won't let others taste the bitterness of my tantrum
they won't bcome my victim
then i won't be feelin......guilty
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went to the library twice in a day
this is somethin that really amazed me
i hvn't been goin to the library at all since the startin of sem 2
terrible student, rite?
remembered last sem i was tellin myself that i'm definitely goin at least twice a week to the library
but i'm lazy, that's why not goin to the library
guess it's time to change my style of livin here
perhaps of the rain today
not much people went to library
so it's kind of nice for me
i'm weird, i like places that are not crowded
tonite the library is some place that i'm comfy with
i can actually relax and study for my PCA
my stupid test on friday nite
saw my bro, zi bin there
wonder will he mind if i call him bro?
mind's empty, can't decode and process it (studyin too much about PCA)
just hope everythin will be goin smoothly on next thursday
if not i'll be sheddin tears *stickin out toungue*
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thanks lucius for accompanyin me
good luck to those who are havin test tomorrow nite
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~GOOD NITE EVERYONE~
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| posted by sippy @ 11:39 PM |
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| Wednesday, October 20, 2004 |
| i wanna fly... |
i dun wanna be in a relationship anymore
i'm fed up to hv one
i feel so pissed off rite now
feel like cryin but can't
hope i hv wings so that i can fly
and leave everyone behind
i wanna fly...
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| posted by sippy @ 6:45 PM |
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| a beautiful grass |
Once upon a time, there was a teacher and his student lying down under a big tree near a big grass area.
Then, suddenly, the student asked the teacher,
Student : Teacher, I'm confused, how can we find our soul-mate? Can you please help me?
Teacher : (Silent for few second, than he answer) Well, it's a pretty hard and easy question.
Student : (Thinking hard) Huh???
Teacher : Look on that way, there are a lot of grass there, why don't you walk there but please never walk backward, just walk straight ahead. On your way, try to find a beautiful grass and pick it up then give it to me. But just one.
Student : Well, ok then... wait for me... (walked straight ahead to the grass field).
A few minutes later...
Student : I'm back.
Teacher : Em, well I don't see any beautiful grass on your hand.
Student : On my journey, I found few beautiful grass, but I thought that I would find a better one, so I didn't pick it up. But I didn't realize that I'm at the end of the field, and I hadn't picked up any. Cause you told me not to go back, so I didn't go back.
Teacher : That's what happened in real life.
What is the message of this story?
* Grass - is people around you
* Beautiful Grass - is people that attract you
* Grass Field - is time
* In looking for your soulmate, please don't always compare and hope that there will be a better one. By doing that, you'll waste your lifetime, cause remember "Time Never Goes Back".
It applies the same in finding your ideal life partner, your suitable career or business, therefore the morale is LOVE & grab hold of the opportunity that you have now, don't waste time!
~There Can Be Only One~
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hv been readin this story couple of times
but then things are still repeatin in my life
the word "dun compare" really really knock me hard
dun get me wrong, not talkin about my relationship
many times and on many stuffs, i do compare mine with others
materially but not spiritually
i'll be sulky and givin others a hard time
why must his or her stuff be better than mine?
why can i hv a better one?
why is his or her grade better than me?
this sorts of question will start ponderin in my head
and makes my own life miserable
it's all my own's fault so no one to be blamed
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i wonder who's the composer of the story
is somethin like that ever really happen to his/her life?
i dunno cos i dunno the author
hope i already found my beautiful grass
and not startin to compare with another better one
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GOD, please make me humble and easily satisfied,
in the name of Jesus i pray to u, Amen!!!
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| posted by sippy @ 6:05 PM |
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| Ten things God won't ask |
Ten things God won't ask
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1...God won't ask what kind of car you drove;
He'll ask how many people you drove who didn't have transportation.
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2...God won't ask the square footage of your house,
He'll ask how many people you welcomed into your home.
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3...God won't ask about the clothes you had in your closet,
He'll ask how many you helped to clothe.
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4...God won't ask what your highest salary was,
He'll ask if you compromised your character to obtain it.
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5...God won't ask what your job title was,
He'll ask if you performed your job to the best of your ability.
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6...God won't ask how many friends you had,
He'll ask how many people to whom you were a friend.
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7...God won't ask in what neighborhood you lived,
He'll ask how you treated your neighbors.
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8...God won't ask about the color of your skin,
He'll ask about the content of your character.
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9...God won't ask why it took you so long to seek Salvation,
He'll lovingly take you to your mansion in heaven, and not to the gates of Hell.
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10...God won't ask how many people you forwarded this to,
He'll ask if you were ashamed to pass it on to your friends.
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these are some words that i got from my old mails
all forwarded mails
dunno why those mails i'll be only readin it 1 time and that's it
after that, i'll just save it in some places and never tend to open them again
guess this is the fate of all these mails
the title attracted me to open this mail so i did it
perhaps many of u read this mail b4
but forgotten about it
thus, it's a time to refresh ur memory, isn't it?
hv a good day everyone
good luck for those who are hvin their MUET Oral test :)
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| posted by sippy @ 10:47 AM |
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| Tuesday, October 19, 2004 |
| where there is... |
Where there is pain,
I wish you peace and mercy.
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Where there is self-doubting,
I wish you a renewed confidence in your ability to work through it.
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Where there is tiredness, or exhaustion,
I wish you understanding, patience, and renewed strength.
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Where there is fear,
I wish you love, and courage.
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copy this from a mail
hv fun readin... :)
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| posted by sippy @ 12:21 PM |
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| just woke up |
i love tuesday, the day for CF, the day for chinese class and the day that i dun hv any class...
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dunno why i feel that i'm a blessed child
maybe it's bcos i dun need to wake up early to go to campus like other uni students
i can sleep late nite knowin that there wouldn't be any class for me
aren't i'm lucky and blessed? :p
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yesterday's english test it's quite okay for me i think
i wrote too long for the essay
full of craps as usual
that's why i'm called "crappycp"
i think others were also writin the same length as me
the title kind of nice, just suits my taste
it's a "cause and effect" essay
hope i didn't mistaken it
it's about why very young couple should not hv early marriages
i think i somehow wrote out of the question by not emphasizin the word "very"
another dead case for me... :D
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darren's really a funny guy
crappin all the way durin supper yesterday
and surprisinly lucius's also crappin a lot last nite instead of me
dayze bcame speechless after talkin to darren
it's surely a funny scene
guess i'm losin my capability to crap in public
or mayb i'm just bein sleepy
the test turned me into "sleepycp" mode...
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what am i gonna do today?
guess i'll just go to CLC to buy milkshake from stef and vijay
drank yesteday, really really really superb (am i bein exaggerated?)
yo people, should go there and buy the magic bottle too!!!
i wanna know what's the secret of makin it lar
so hope it sold finish so that we can make summore :p
can't wait now...
~GOOD MORNIN TO THE WORLD~ |
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| Wednesday, October 13, 2004 |
| late at nite... |
nite's late
everyone's asleep
only my precious com is with me
enjoyin this silent moment of midnite
i'm strugglin rite now
to study and memorize everythin in econs
i dun like econs
but there's no use grumblin
in the end of day, i still need to face the cruelty
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eyes gettin tired
i really feel like sleepin
recallin tonite's CF
i was sleepin durin pastor's preachin
it's a lecture to me
that's why i'm reactin this way
it's about the time
i change my way of treatin my life
thanks the commitee of CF
they work hard to maintain the CF
and thanks Samuel for the ride home
really really appreciate that
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no mood to study
that's why doin the cross-stitch for the whole nite
my eyes are tired
but i can't just let myself sleepin
hv to understand chapter 2 totally
so that i can score well tomorrow
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good nite to the world
good nite Malaysia
by now, everyone's sleepin
hope u guys sleep tight and have sleep dream
and dun forget to wish me luck tomorrow
*
~ GOOD NITE EVERYONE ~ |
| posted by sippy @ 3:11 AM |
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| Monday, October 11, 2004 |
| fosee lab again |
i'm in the fosee lab again updatin my blog
kind of bored
still hvn't figure out how to customize my blog
i'm a lazy person
and not as creative as Dayze
*LOL*
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if u see the time on my blog
it's actually not the rite one
i didn't blog at that certain time
since i dunno how to change the blog
i'll just leave it that way
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glad that my essay finish in time
took me an hour plus to finish it
800 over words but full with grammatical errors
i'm weak at that :p
since my specs broken
i hv no choice but to be specless to sch :(
brought my specs along and where in class
it's really a funny scene for me
but i dun think anyone notice it when i'm wearin in class
*sigh*
why everythin happen on Saturday?
black black Saturday... |
| posted by sippy @ 5:51 PM |
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| homework... |
i hate doin my homework
i got loads of them for this semester
rite now i'm writin my english essay
*groan*
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| Sunday, October 10, 2004 |
| my so-called borin diary |
Friday
went to JJ to buys some stuffs with Lucius
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things i plan to buy:
1. UNO cards (feel like playin)
2. candles (mom asked)
3. nail clippers (my scissors gone)
4. reload card (bought in ep)
5. ink (didn't buy)
6. pail (the main reason i went to JJ)
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things i didn't plan to buy but end up buyin
1. Dove facial foam (love Dove products)
2. hair clips (hair's gettin longer)
3. OXY 10 (pimples increasin)
4. Archie comic (hvn't been buyin for weeks)
5. oil control firm (such a oily face i hv)
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that's all i bought i think
can't remember now :p
oh yeah, went to arcade and play photo hunt
addicted to the game ^_^
and then had my dinner in Nando's
borrow ah soon 's phrase
"Mahal sial" :P
the plate of Nando's is RM 11.70
regert goin there
think i spend about RM 100 on Friday
hv to keep on to my budget again *Sigh*
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Saturday
went out with the CF Farts members
saw Kamini for the first time :)
Hiya, Kamini! (dun think she's readin my blog :p)
went to eat chendol in Jonker Street
thanks Kamini for the lunch, it was great :D
later went to walk around and went to some shops
didn't buy anythin bcos i'm broke :(
well, that's how life is
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later went to Grace's house
her house's damn nice, how i wish i'm livin at a house like that instead of in EP
mom, can i move out? *pleadin with very sincere eyes* :D
Grace was teachin her cross-stitch
i just realized studyin is so so so easy compare to this complicated-doin and easy-lookin-doin thingy
i'm gonna study very very hard from now onwards :B
finally finish 1 bunny today :D *jumpin around in the room*
i hv fun hangin around with the CF Farts members, especially George
he's really 1 funny guy to talk with :)
u rocks, George!!!
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Happy birthday, Grace!!! Wish u all the best in whatever u do and good luck!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D
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GOD, please bless that Dayze will recover ASAP, Amen. *worried look*
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Good day, everyone!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ^_^
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| Saturday, October 09, 2004 |
| movie time |
went out to watch movie with CG yesterday
accordin to Edmund
it isn't a CG outin
it's a CF outin
haha, that remark was so rite
4 CG combined and went together
but Abel's CG watch other movie
and we went to watch Jackie Chan's newest movie
dun really remember what it called
was sittin beside Edmund, the coolest guy in CF ;)
generally the movie was kind of nice
it's such a long time that Jackie Chan acted in a cantonese-conversation movie
i miss those time when he hasn't gone to Hollywood yet
just like all the movies he acted
he's been fightin from startin of the show until the end
and this time he's also actin
wow, this is really awesome
i finally see him actin
nicholas tse looks so cute in the movie
i didn't like him before that
but i guess i can start like him now
there's a lot of new faces in the movie
the new idol in hong kong
watchin this movie makes me realized 1 thing
why they need so much modal to do a movie
it's bcos they hv to clean up the mess that they make
in Jackie Chan movie, a lot of things were bein destroyed
and those nice cars, nice legos, nice rubber ducklin
so wastin, pity for them :(
i also feel pity for the people who clean them up
must be a lot of hardwork
so next time watch action movies
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| Friday, October 08, 2004 |
| ice-cream |
Your Icecream Flavour is...
French Vanilla! |
 You're a smooth and silky suave type! You exude class and you believe in tradition. A classical taste who doesn't like things to be too flashy or showy. Climb the Eiffel tower of taste with a spoonfull of you! Oui Oui! |
What is your Icecream Flavour?
Find out at Go Quiz
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| Thursday, October 07, 2004 |
| bloggin in chomsky lab |
rite now i'm in chomsky lab
havin my listenin practice
sorry to tell the teacher that
i was sleepin all a long startin from practive 5 :p
was sleepin very very late
at 4 am this mornin
"thanks" to ah soon for chattin with me
haha
just kiddin
was my own fault cos i'm busy readin manga
am addicted to it
lookin forward to watch movie later
haven't been watchin movie since the break
thanks GOD for givin me a break
i really need it now :D
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| posted by sippy @ 4:30 PM |
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| Wednesday, October 06, 2004 |
| To ... |
To laugh is to risk appearing the fool
To weep is to risk appearing sentimental
To reach out to others is to risk involvement
To expose feelings is to risk exposing your true self
To place your ideas, your dreams before a crowd is to risk their loss
To love is to risk not being loved in return
To live is to risk dying
To hope is to risk despair
To try is to risk failure
But risks must be taken, because the greatest hazard in life is to do nothing.
The person who risks nothing, does nothing, has nothing, and is nothing.
They may avoid suffering and sorrow, but they cannot learn, feel, change, grow, love and live.
Chained by their attitudes, they are a slave, they forfeited their freedom.
Only the person who risks can be free.
the words up there were sent to me by a senior via YM
i wonder how many of u will really read the words up there
quite inspirin though
my presentation's not too bad
dunno why the sound couldn't be played by winamp
felt so disappointed about it
but the flash i found let my group mates had a good laugh
so i guess doin this assignment is worth while
i like hearin people's laughter :D
i gain 1 friendship back recently
i think so
but not too sure yet
was really relieved when we can get along like last sem
i seriously dun wanna lose this friend of mine
the other friendship that i lost hasn't gain back yet
hope everythin will be fine in the end |
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| Tuesday, October 05, 2004 |
| testing... |
testing cp's blogggg...
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| Monday, October 04, 2004 |
| my new blog |
finally havin a new blog
love it lots
rite now in dayze's place
goin to hv movie marathoin tonite
hope i won't fall asleep again :D
GOD answers those who pray~~~ |
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