Just Being Me - Sippy

a simple plain jane who believes Jesus is her only saviour. she has an awesome family but in need of salvation. her current addiction is 2pm but shinhwa will always remain as the love of her life.
Thursday, November 24, 2005
what is beautiful??
Andrew was telling me about the question that Jason Teoh has posted on his ym whether it's a fact or myth that girls usually go out with the "bad boys" but only bring home the "good boys". I'm not gonna discuss what he posted in his blog. I'm just gonna do something similar. I'll ask u what "beautiful" is in ur eyes..


What is "beautiful"??


I go to Dictionary.com and this is the answer that i got:
beautiful


adj 1: delighting the senses or exciting intellectual or emotional admiration; "a beautiful child"; "beautiful country"; "a beautiful painting"; "a beautiful theory"; "a beautiful party" [ant: ugly] 2: aesthetically pleasing 3: (of weather) highly enjoyable; "what a beautiful day"


Unsatisfied with the result that I got, I went to check out the word "beautiful" under Google Images and Yahoo! Image. There's a saying a picture worths a thousand words, isn't it?? Looking at those pictures sure help people to understand certain things more rite??


Let's just ignore the beautiful sceneries and the beautiful animals that appear alrites?? Let's just focus on people instead. Those people that appear are mostly women, kids and babies. The question I have in mind is where is the men?? Why aren't men be called beautiful then??


So what is beautiful is actually about?? Is it about the appearance or is it about the heart?? Do you called a big fat ugly woman who wear outdated clothing from the 80's but give u a smile everytime she sees u beautiful knowing how kind and how generous she is?? Or do u called an extremely pretty girl who is gorgerous looking and always wears whatever is trendy but doesn't give a damn about the falls of other people beautiful??


What inspires to think someone is beautiful or not?? The words that the person says?? The way the person moves?? The way that the person thinks?? Or is it the way the person shows hiimself??U might think ballerinas are beautiful creatures, showing her grace movements on the stage. Then how about a fat ballerina?? She might be more graceful than the rest but do u regard her as beautiful as well??


We often think a beatiful person must have a certain criterias. The person must have a sweet and charming smile, gorgeously bright eyes that seems to able to talk to you, slim figures that shows u his/her fitness, milky white skin and a friendly, cheerful attitude that draws u closer to him/her. Some people might add a beautiful heart as well that always shows care and concern on other ppl. Is that what u hv in ur mind as well?? I'm not u so I dunno ur tots and I definitely can't criticise or categorise u becos we are in a democratic country that allows u to think freely.


Sometimes people might tell u that u should go this guy or that girl bcos of their beautiful appearance and he/she matches with ur good-looking appearance. Now the question is do u take the person's advice and go for that certain person?? Just bcos it matches ur outlook and so u go for him/her?? Or do u take ur time to look for the one that u really really think suits u instead?? What if u found someone that really suits ur character but not beautiful in other ppl's eyes?? Do u still go for that person??


They said beauty is in the eye of beholder. That person is beautiful when ur heart thinks she/he is. No one should doubt on ur view bcos that's wat ur heart tells u. If u think urself as beautiful and so u are. If u think ur good friend is beautiful then he/she is. The term beautiful is not only for females, for males as well. A beautiful mind, a beautiful heart are what matters to the Mighty One up there. Lastly, no one is ugly and everyone is beautiful in the eyes of ur parents, ur siblings, ur true friends and GOD.


Quotation for those who think they are not beautiful, especially girls:
"When you're a beautiful person on the inside, there is nothing in the world that can change that about you. Jealousy is the result of one's lack of self-confidence, self-worth, and self-acceptance. The Lesson: If you can't accept yourself, then certainly no one else will."


Quotation for guys:
"You don't love a woman because she is beautiful, but she is beautiful because you love her"
posted by sippy @ 6:34 PM   0 comments

crappin again..
Before I start blogging, allow me to bring you into an exploration. I'll call it exploration of heart. Let's begin now..


Close your eyes, take a deep breath. Clear ur mind and feels ur surroundin with ur heart.. You can put some jazz music just to help u falls into the mood. Make sure u're not thinkin about somethin nasty.
When u're ready, then imagine a deep and sophiscated voice askin u this question. When u wake up early in the mornin, when u open up ur eyes, when ur mind gains it consciousness.. Wat is it lookin forward to?? What is it that you look forward to when u open ur eyes everyday?? Is it the food that u're goin to eat?? Is it somethin that u're gonna do?? Is it someone that u wish to see?? I guess the thing that u're lookin forward to is the thing ur heart desire most at that period of time.. This wasn't really an exploration btw, I was just crappin only. :p


I dunno what u expect most in ur heart but let me tell u mine.. Let me tell u what I look forward the most everyday. I look forward to see a certain person everyday. I hope to spend time with the certain person everyday. I wish I can hear him speak. I hope I can hold his hand. I yearn for his company and I yearn for his cheerfulness to light up the dull boring day of mine so I can have an interestin moment..
When I dun get it, I'll get upset and I'll be lonely.


Once, there's this guy said:"I don't like to wait patiently but I'm very good at waiting." Similarly I learned much more than I thought in this statement. I'm beginnin to be good at waiting. At night besides doin my tutorial, readin manga and check mail, I will be waitin for a person paitiently as well. Just like every other day. Sometimes my waitin worthwhile and somethins my efforts just flow into the drain. This is like taking a risk, a certain risk of playin with ur heart.


Can't write anymore bcos drowziness just conquer over me. Nites peeps.
posted by sippy @ 2:26 AM   0 comments

Tuesday, November 22, 2005
NC is less than 1 week..
Just open my yahoo mailbox, I realized that NC is less than 1 week. NC, National Conference which held in Genting is startin on next Monday and is going to last for 6 days. 10 of us are going there. To be honest, I'm feeling more nervous and afraid than exciting..


I'm not good at mixing with strangers, especially in an environment that I'm unfamiliar with. I would havesit down there quietly and not make a single voice until someone actually talks to me. I'm not a good conversationalist like Elaine or Andrew. Thus, I fear the outcoming that's awaiting for me when I'm there. Who will I meet?? What will I do?? Will I learn more about GOD?? Will I have a closer bond with him after the conference?? Doubts are building in my mind. I don't have anything to offer to the Mighty One above but I'm willing to do anything that I can to please Him..


Guess what's the best part of joining NC?? None of my family members know about it. Yeap yeap.. My beloved mom n dad has know nothin about NC and me goin for the NC In Genting. If they found out, I will be in deep shit.. That's why I can't risk myself being caught and that's why I have to go back this weekend. In my case, honesty is not really the best policy even though GOD asks us to not to give false testimony. But I guess sometimes u hv to.. Hope mom n dad won't be too disappointed at me if one day they really find out what I'm doing behind their back.. :|


My tutorial is as hard as usual. I have prob understandin what the question is requestin for. I know law only deals with words. It's so much more easier comparin to engineerin and IT. It's only a matter of memorising. I know all that.. That's why I'm feelin so stupid rite now cos incapable of answering all the questions posted in my tutorial. Aiks aiks.. Looks like I'm not paying much attention in class again. Have to stay awake more often now. :p


Gotta get back to my tutorial again. Chiaoz ppl. :)
posted by sippy @ 12:05 PM   0 comments

Monday, November 21, 2005
happy bday to Anastatsia. =)
Good morning to u,
good morning to u,
good morning good morning,
good morning to u.


Just wanna wish u a good morning and hv a nice day.


Happy 18th bday to dear Anastasia!! U're finally old enough to watch any movie that u want. =D Hope all ur bday wishes come true and hope u always stay so cute. Lots of <3 for ya. :)


Ciaoz.. late for class now :p
posted by sippy @ 8:42 AM   0 comments

Sunday, November 20, 2005
Happy belated 1 year anniversary to my blog. =)
I opened my blogspot today wanted to blog. I dun hv anythin to blog but i feel it's my duty to update my blog since I hv started it. LJ is abondoned by me long long time ago, I hope I'm not going to do the same thing to my blogspot. :p


I look at my archives and I realized something.. It's been more than a year I have blogged in my blogspot. "HAPPY 1 YEAR ANNIVERSARY!!" A belated 1 year anniversary to my blog and myself. In this 1 year, many have happend to me. There are lots of ups and downs but I treasure every experice that I blog cos each of them helps me to be more mature.


So to my lovely blogspot, I'm glad we have gone through so many things together and we will continue to go on as well, u recording all my thoughts n feelins and me tryin my best to make u a better blog. <3 ya lots. ^_^


One of my bestest friend, Huiyin just celebrated her 19th bday. Her bday is on Nov 19, 1119. She's my housemate and my coursemate for Alpha. I just went out to celebrate her with Chee Seng(Cheese). Cheese came all the way to Cyber to meet up his friends. The 3 of us went to eat dinner. I didn't eat much bcos I had a late lunch with BoyY and so is Cheese. Huiyin was disturbed by both of us to the max. I had a really really fun time. =P


Secret Recipe was our next destination. There's no car for us to rent so we had no choice but to take a cab instead. Aiks aiks~~ Anyway we reached Tesco and to have our appetite filled. My mouth becomes watery when I gazed upon the delicious tempting cheese cake. Who cares about the stupid diet?? Who cares about keepin fit n stayin slim?? It's the cheese cake that matters now. I had 2 pieces, Marble and New York Cheese Cake. Yummy~~ Cheese took funny pics of us eating the cheese cake and we sang Happy Birthday song for Huiyin. It caused everyone to look at us. Huiyin was so embarrased but it was fun to disturb her. ^_^v Haha~~ After that, we went home by cab again. Thanks Cheese for being so gentlement. U're 1 great great guy.


To my dearest Huiyin, u are always there when I needed u. U shared all my sad moments, u share all my happiness. U're the one I share all my secrets with u for I know u're a trustworthy person. U're my lunch n dinner partner sometimes and u called me "jie jie" despite how immature i am. I'm glad to have a friend like u who will always stay by my side no matter what happen. Words can't describe my gratitude to u, words can't describe the friendship I have bond with u. Even though we have only known each other for only 1 year plus but u're closer to me than those friends whom I have known for many many years. Thankx for everythin n may all ur bday wishes come true in the following days. <3 u lots, gal. (",)


Happy 19th bday, Huiyin!! =D
posted by sippy @ 12:35 AM   1 comments

Friday, November 18, 2005
happy stuffs?? nono.. sad stuffs?? maybe..
I wish to blog about happy stuffs in my blog all the time but not everyday u will hv sunshine shininin in ur life. This is the kind of day which I feel the clouds are so thick sunshine just doesn't come through..


U might be wonderin what I'm talkin about, it doesn't make sense in ur mind. I know u're puzzlin but I can't tell u what happens. It might be no big deal if u know it but they are to me.. Somethin are just best left unsaid. As for somethin else, you have master card to help u settles it.


To me, the hardest thing to deal with is none other than human's emotions. It's weird that we hv diff kind of emotions, be it happiness, jealousy, anger... etc etc. Out of all these emotions, love is the important cos bible said so. The thing is we dun feel love all the time, we feel sad and betray more often. They said it takes lesser muscles to smile then to frown. Smile is suppose to be an easier thing to do but we human being rather use up more energy to show the uphappy side of us.. No wonder ppl tends to eat a lot when they are down.. This tells why fat ppl are increasing from time to time.. Just kiddin. :p


If u ask me 1 thing that I hate to do, I'll tell u directly n immediately I hate pissing ppl off. I hate seein them being troubled, being unhappy. I'll feel guilty when I see them frowning and tat's why I'm sayin sorry all the time, just to avoid pissin ppl off..


I guess it's not advisable for me to continue writin.. Feelin kinda lame n sleepy rite now.. I might spill out my darkess secret if I'm not careful.. Haha~~ Nites ppl. Peace out.
posted by sippy @ 3:14 AM   0 comments

Wednesday, November 16, 2005
CF (Christian Fellowship) is once again starting in MMU. It's on every Tuesday and it's the main activity of my uni life.


After not seeing my friends for 5 weeks, I'm glad I'm seeing them again. It's so nice seeing all those familiar faces smiling at u n some of them givin u some hugs. Nothing beats those, trust me on that. ;)
Dexter Ng, a pastor I think came to CF to give a talk about FAMILY.
FAMILY = Father And Mother I Love You.
He gave a great talk but I seem to forget what he said :p Lousy memory I had and I knew. But I do remember some details about respecting authority beginning at home. If you dun respect ur parents then u're not be respecting other elders as well, rite rite??


Ppl come n ppl go. Eu Seng transfer to Cyber and Desmond doing his industry training in Mlk. I guess I'll be missing Eu Seng a lot just like how I miss Dan. I consider them as my close friend even though they might not treat me the same way. :p Hope Eu Seng will be happy in Cyber. But I still find it strange for ppl to transfer elsewhere in their last academic year.


Desmond is a guy that I know in IF camp this year which was held in Penang. I remember eating lunch with him in the same table for few times with Jess n Jasmyin. He is a fun guy to get along with, can talk craps with him. He's going to be here for a whole sem, hopefully I'll be able to get closer to him. :)


Elaine complained to me that I dun put any pics on my Korean trip. The thing is I dunno how to put the pics in my blog. You might said, "Yeah rite, u posted Kim Jae Woon's pic in ur blog b4 wat.." The prob is that the last time I used "hello" software to upload my pic and I dun hv the same software in the laptop I'm using now. I dun intend to download it as well.. I dun think I would be uploading pics that often rite?? So might as well be it. =P


Classes are not too bad, seeing I go to class everyday and the lecturers hasn't mentioned my name yet. I got Mdm. Flora as my academic advisor for my next 4 years, hopefully I won't be creating much troubles for her.
posted by sippy @ 11:37 PM   0 comments

Tuesday, November 15, 2005
korea??
Updatin.. updatin.. updatin..


After 20 days of not wastin time updatin my blog, I decided it's time to update about my boring life with it. My blog is actually my online diary, I guess it holds the same function to many ppl in MMU, rite??


Throughout my primary, 2dary and my alpha life, my holiday has never ever been so busy b4. I dun hv much time to stay at home and sleep as much as I want. Why am I so busy?? Travelling is the key word.


Just like Mark and Deric, I went to Korea as well. I'm not lucky as lucky as they are. Deric has family stayin there and Mark is stayin with Deric. As for me, I went on tour with my mom n my bro, for 5 days.


If u ask me to describe Korea, I would try u that it's a nice place to live in. It was autumn when I'm there, u can see the green leaves turned into redish and orangy, breath-taking scenery can be seen in a lot of places, makes u want to take as much shots as possible bcos u dun see those kind of places in Malaysia since there's no 4 seasons in Malaysia. The weather is nice there even though it's a bit too cold for me. I have to wear BoyY's sweater all the time to keep myself warm. Ur hand will be freakin cold after washin them. Too bad I dun hv any gloves to protect my hand.


One thing that I like about Korea is the cleanliness of their W.C. I know a lot of other countries hv clean W.C as well, but I'm not in those countries, I'm in Korea, that's why I shall talk about Korea only. Comparing to the situation in Malaysia, you can see how much efforts that the Korea Government puttin in. U would hv agree with me if u see it with ur own eyes. No kiddin. And another thing about Korea's W.C is that theirs are free, unlike Malaysia which requires u to pay 20 cents wherever u go.


For a typical chinese like me, food is a very important issue to deal with. There's a chinese saying," The way to a man's heart is through his stomach". If u're a girl who knows how to cook, I'm sure there will be a bunch of guys out there lining up for ya esepcially nowadays girls dun cook anymore. If u ask me to choose between Korean and Malaysian food, my finger will always point to Malaysian food. I'm not saying that Korean food is not good but Kimchi just doesn't suit my taste, I can never get myself eatin it cos it's vege. Yuckss.. Besides Malaysian food has stronger taste, just fit into my taste buds perfectly.


I'll continue my opinions on Korea some other times. Getting sleepy now. =P Nites peeps.
posted by sippy @ 3:15 AM   0 comments

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