Just Being Me - Sippy: To Park Jae Beom, the ex-leader of 2pm

Just Being Me - Sippy

a simple plain jane who believes Jesus is her only saviour. she has an awesome family but in need of salvation. her current addiction is 2pm but shinhwa will always remain as the love of her life.

Sunday, September 20, 2009

To Park Jae Beom, the ex-leader of 2pm

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I'm surprise with myself wanting to write this post to you even though I know you will never read this, since there are millions of blog posts, sites, news dedicating to you.
But still, I just feel like writing this.

The day you left was the day that I got to know 2pm.
Before that, I have never thought of paying attention to 2pm.
The first time I heard the name, I was thinking, "what kind of group would call themselves 2pm?? They are so weird."
So after 2pm had debuted for 1 year, and after you, Park Jae Beom left, I thought of checking you guys out finally, since you have created much uproar.

I always decide whether a group is to my liking based on their performance on variety show.
That's the main reason why I love Shinhwa, they are so fun to watch, so natural and yet so lovable.
I started looking at 2pm variety show clips on youtube and guess what??
I fell for you guys after watching "Idol Army".
I love how NATURAL you guys are.
And I love how DIFFERENT you guys are from other idol groups.
You have the similar qualities that Shinhwa have and that made me addicted to you guys. Wow.. no wonder Minwoo said 2pm is similar to Shinhwa.
But Park Jay Beom, knowing this makes me regret watching those clips now.
Cos if I do not know how awesome 2pm is, I would never be troubled by the very fact that you have quitted the group.

I am lucky that I know Shinhwa much later, long after the incident of Andy leaving the group.
Shinhwa was lucky and so was Andy.
He left the group and came back almost 1 year later, and became part of the reason why Shinhwa still remains together after everything they have gone through, because they have experienced separation, so they know how precious each other is.
It's true that during that 1 year period, Shinhwa continued to be successful without Andy.
But were the Shinhwa Oppas happy without Andy??
The answer is NO and that’s why they had the "Guerilla Concert" to get Andy back.
To them 6-1=0 applied. Shinhwa is incomplete without Andy.
Shinhwa has proved themselves to be legendary, by remaining together after 11 years without changing any group member or having any member leaving the group.

But since I know Shinhwa much later, I missed the "Suwon moment", I miss the "4th fanmeeting", but still I considered myself lucky, to avoid the pain and agony of waiting for Andy's return.
And just when I am happily waiting for their reunion, and you, Pak Jae Beom, see what you have got me into??
You quit 2am, and now you made me experiencing the anxiety, pain and agony of waiting.
So Park Jae Beom, what are you going to do next??

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I have seen so many comments about missing you, hoping to see you coming back to the group, whether on youtube, allkpop, baidu, or 2oneday forum, everyday there will be people saying how much they miss you, how much they hate the korean net fans for digging out what you said in the pass, and the whole "patriotic issue".
To me, I find it ridiculous too but then again, everything happens for its own reason.
There's a Chinese saying 塞翁失马，焉知非福 (sai weng shi ma, yan zhi fei fu), it means even if unfortunate event happens, it might turn out to be a blessing.
Do you know much fans you have before leaving 2pm??
Do you know how much fans you got after leaving 2pm??
Do you know what an impact you made on people now??
Do you know how important you are to your members, to your fans now??

I don't exactly know what are the real reasons of you leaving the group.
Perhaps like you had always said, "it's a conspiray", JYPE forcing you to leave.
Perhaps it's like what JYP had said, "it's his decision to leave", and so you to return to Seattle.
But no matter what the reason is, it's not important now.
What the Hottest wants is an honest statement from you, whether it's really your intention of really quitting 2pm, or just a rushed decision, and instead you just need time to cool off and return when you are ready.
I know you're ashamed for the remarks that you've made 4 years ago, but it’s no big deal to me, and perhaps it’s not such a big deal to you either.

But what you could not accept is that how you are not forgiven for the careless words from 4 years ago. Despite the 4 years of hardship training, despite the efforts you show them on stage, on variety show, people still think of you as one who is not patriotic, who is a shame to Korean, who should die instantly.
I know how disappointed you are when they forgot you were only18 when you wrote it. They forgot even 4 years later, you were only 22, not mature enough to handle most things yet. They forgot as a third generation Korean American, you have problem adopting the cultural shock, and the loneliness away from your family and friends. They also forgot you are only a human, as fragile as they are, and you will make mistake like them too. And lastly, they forgot about the “Choi Jin Shil incident”, and luckily they only forced a talented singer away from Korea, not to death.

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But Park Jae Beom, so what if the anti-fans have signed a suicide petition, so what many can’t forgive you now??
You do not need their support, you only need the Hottest. Idol group always called their fans their families, because they know no matter what happen, the fans are always there for them.
Your Hottest has showed it to you that they stick to their words, they are willing to fight for your return, as long as they know what your real intention is.
But if it's your intention to quit, then let them know as well, so that they can respect your decisions, and stop boycotting and continue to support the other 6.
So Park Jae Beom, state a date for that statement, think thoroughly with what you want, be honest with yourself, do not be afraid of anything, just pour out your heart's true desire, so that you don't regret for the rest of your lives.

Park Jae Beom, if you called yourself a true Christian, then think of it as a trial from God.
God will never give you a trial that you couldn't overcome.
So what if the mountain in front of you seems so large, with God behind you, His 1 finger can lift it up isn't it??
You might say I am in no position to say all these, cause I'm not you, cause I'm not hated by thousands, but so what?
I share the same God as you and I know how awesome He is, and I know He will carry you through, cause He has showed how much you are being loved right??
He has opened a door for you, He has showed your talents to the world, and now you’re going to shut the door yourself, without trying to endure it??
You’re a leadja, you’re not a loser, you’re the tough Park Jae Beom with 6-pack body, the centre of attention.
You dance well, sing well, rap well, and all the girls were attracted by your charms.
I bet God knows that too, and that’s why He lets this happen to you, to see how you would face it, to see how much you would grow from this, to see whether you can remain your faith no matter what happens, and to bless you greatly when you have proved yourself.

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So leadja, stop keeping quiet, stop being silent and stop sinking into your guiltiness and disappointment.
That’s not the Park Jae Beom that the Hottest like because the Hottest like a leadja who is 100% confident, always true to himself.
And always remember this, people are forgetful.
This might be a big issue now but 3 months later, nobody would remember it anymore.
The battle between JYPE and Hottest will not be long too, someone else will eventually take your place and even though 2pm is not the same without you, people will move on and continue to support the remaining 1:59pm.
Neither of us wants to see this happening, especially those that have captivated by your sexy charm, so Park Jae Beom, do something before it’s too late.
A statement from you will lead to a conclusion of how things are.
And I know you are well-aware of that too, and all you need now is courage and that’s why the Hottest are there for you.
I really, really do want to see more of you on variety show like “Wild Bunny” but then again, that is my wish, and whatever you have decided, your decision will be respected.

God bless you. :)

Labels: 2pm, park jae beom

posted by sippy @ 8:52 PM

2 Comments:

At 12:46 AM, -XioN- said…

woah.. tats a long post for him and i really like what you're saying.. should try to post it up to his forum or post it to his house and let him read... :D
At 12:05 PM, NikTim said…

i love this post ^^