a simple plain jane who believes Jesus is her only saviour.
she has an awesome family but in need of salvation.
her current addiction is 2pm but shinhwa will always remain as the love of her life.
| Thursday, September 08, 2005 |
| read and u will know |
Emptiness is within my heart.. The satisfying happiness is no where to be seen. It's as though the world has left me alone or is it vice versa?? People around me are laughing happily, things have been beatuiful for them for they know what they want. Looking at them. my heart envies them, how I wish my heart is as light as they are. I try to be a part of them, showing my smile all the time, even though I know how fake it is, even though I know how insincere it is. I can't afford to let anyone knows I'm wearing a mask, that face that disguises my real self, the real self that I hesistate to let people know. After all, I'm just a self-concious girl that fearing bad remarks from people. The thing is no matter how hard I try, the emptiness is still there, expanding in a fast pace until I'm lost, don't know what to do. I'm frustrated at myself until the extent that I'm hurting people around me who cares for me a lot. Heart's feeling guilty, hands shaking nervously after taking drugs, words that hurt people flowing out nonstopping and tears streaming down for repentance, that's just prove I have no self control on myself once again, a spoil brat that's troubling everyone around me..
Haha~~ how was the emo crappy thingy I wrote up there?? Emo enough to freak you guys out?? Do I have the talent to write fiction as well?? Don't worry about the content I wrote up there, it's just for fun writing. There's absolutely nothing wrong with me. I'm happy with the way I am. ;)
I won't blog about CF on Tuesday because there's someone blogging it already. You can just visit other CF members' blogs and see how many of them blog about it. =P
Getting tired now, I better crash into the bed. Nites nites everyone out there. Cheers~~ |
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