Just Being Me - Sippy

a simple plain jane who believes Jesus is her only saviour. she has an awesome family but in need of salvation. her current addiction is 2pm but shinhwa will always remain as the love of her life.
Thursday, September 29, 2005
i keep crying in my dream..
Just woke up from my nap, I was feeling superbly tired earlier. Had a strange dream during the sleep.. Does this sound familiar to someone?? I realized what's my biggest weak point from this dream --> It's my family, my parents who I love most.


In the dream, I was in a room with lots of ppl all the time. Mom was some sort of a chairman there and I was sitting beside her. My dad who was very dear to me in my dream died some time ago. Some guys (forgot who they were) talked to me, somehow strung my memory string about my dad and made me start crying. I remember crying none-stop becos I was very very miserable. Dad was very close to my heart and he left me and go heaven in the dream. My heart was frail and fragile, collapse very very easily. A lot of ppl tried to stop me from crying and eventually I stopped. Then there's someone sitting beside me in the room, I don't know why I fought with the person and I won. A few tables and chairs was smashed. Mom was out of the room that time. When she came, we quickly hide everything so that she wouldn't know and the meeting continued.


Suddenly, the scene changed into a hotel, a very nice hotel. Forgot who brought me there, we were trying to find for someone to get something done. We met the hotel staffs there and they sort of know me and my dad. They talked about him and as I listen I cry again. Once again, I cried none-stop, freaking people around me. I kept sobbing and sniffing, my face must be looking very ugly that time. They moved me back to the meeting room once again. Many people gather around me, friends (strangers who I think they are my friends) from different places come to comfort me, helping me to get over my dad's death, the fact that he's not around me anymore. The dreans ends here bcos I was awake by noise..


This dream is very very strange to me indeed but it proves something, my family is more important than me compare to anything in this world. I'm not sure GOD can top my parents or in the same level as they are. If one day GOD were to bring my parents away from me, will I be blaming the mighty HIM?? I really don't konw and I hope this won't happen to me for now becos I am so not ready to face that yet.. I'm not strong enought yet..


Missing them a lot right now. Glad I'm going back this weekend to see them. Hope from now onwards I'll be a more obedient child that will make them proud of me. Wish I will.
posted by sippy @ 3:56 PM   0 comments

Wednesday, September 28, 2005
happy birthday to my good friend, Joel =)
Happy birthday 2 u,
U r born in the zoo..
Wit the monkey n the kangaroo..
N the monkey is U...
Hehehe....
Happy happy birthday Joel!!!!


Yeap yeap, today is GLAS1's CG leader, Joel's birthday. He's finally as old as me, last year for the "1" figure in front. Suddenly, I feel so old comparing to him even though we are in the same year. Mom, why do I come out from ur tummy earlier?? Dad, why did ur sperm reach mom's ovum so fast?? *Okay, CP, stop whinning and crapping over there* my conscious is scolding me again. XD


Joel, my CG leader is an engineering student in his BETA year right now. Don't ask him what he's taking cos I can't remember. (Sorry Joel) According to his bro, Jonathan, he's a very hardworking dude that study and do his tutorial everyday. How often can u get a guy sittin down quietly to do his work?? At least I know my bro won't. When we were in primary school, my bros would run away from the table as soon as my mom left us, hiding somewhere to read their comics. Until they, they are comic freaks like me, we have the same blood after all. ;) From this statement, we can know that guys like Joel are very rare these day. A + point for him.


If you read Renee's blog you will see that she mentioned Joel's a good drummer. I have no doubt about that. He's a very talented drummer who serves both the church and CF. I admire people who plays drum. To me, drummers are cool people who I like to see most in a band. I tried playing drum before but my hands and leg won't coordinate with each other. When my right hand hits correctly, I'll forget to hit the big drum with my leg, losing the beat in the end. That's why I really repsect Joel when he plays drum. Joel, u look most handsome when u play drums. =P Another + point for him.


Joel, my CG leader is definitely a very devoted Christian. A lot of our CG sessions are bible study which I seldom attend becos of various reasons (you probably think I'm givin excuses now =P). He aand another fellar can memorise all the books in the bible. I'm quite amazed by both of them. I'm not surprise if he has read through the whole bible, he's Joel after all. =D Another + point for him.


Add althogether Joel has 3 + points d. Everyone please give him a loud applause!! *clap loudly* We can see that Joel is this wonderful guy that many people would like to befriend with. So allow me to wish this birthday boy to have all his wishes come true in this jolly year that is ahead of him. ^_^


HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Tuesday, September 27, 2005
wrote another crappy entry.. yeah..
I try updating yesterday but the entry didn't update to my blog so I was frus about it and decided not to rewrite. Just imagine ur 30 mins' worth of effort was wasted, don't you feel like screaming?? I know I wrote craps all the time but still it's what I feel within me. Aiks..


I just woke up, wasn't on my tip-top condition, having a slight headache now. As for my mood.. feeling a bit annoying, can't even get myself to smile. If I look into mirror, I'll sure be looking at a sulky ugly face. Looking at the books that around me, be it textbook, reference book or even comic book, I don't have the urge to open and read at all. I need some study mood now.. Will eating my lunch help me to gain that back??


Yesterday I was chatting with a guy friend of mine. He told me to grow up and stop being childish. He said he can tolerate me acting childish but not in thinkingwise. The funny part was this guy is younger than me. I feel like I got lecture from a younger bro. =P Now whatever he told me is stucked into my mind, makes me wonder whether I'm as childish as he think or only my words and actions give him this false impression?? To me, being childish is a form of protection, protecting me from the real world. Without it, I don't even know how to get along with ppl. When there's ppl around me, I tend to disturb them, tease them or doing childish acts. If I'm able, I hope to irritate them to the max. Friends from old time said I'm loud. I admitted and even until now I still talk loudly, trying to get ppl's attention. I might be one of the LOAs. =P Haha.. this entry is starting to get emo and I don't like it when it is. Sometimes I kind of envy Jess, she never gets emo. Why and how?? Some questions will just be remain unsolved.


Chiaoz, hv to force myself study, don't wanna fail my Consti paper tomorrow. Good luck ppl, the war is still on. ^_^
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Monday, September 26, 2005
I was too tired so I took an afternoon nap. I guess I kinda deserve it cos was studying until 3am yesterday. I still feel tired now. *a big yawn* I still wanna sleep..


My mls test was over for now. I'm gonna follow what Mdm. Floral taught me, not discussing the answer for the question. You won't know who's right or who's wrong unless you get back your test paper with a distinguish 9?/100 in a circle with V. Good written in red beside it. Now this is what I called a good distinguish mark which make you difference from the rest and I know this will never be my score because I didn't put that much efforts in it. It's funny how I always want to score A for each paper and how I only request merely for a pass now. The gap between ALPHA and BETA is so wide.. or is it my laziness that makes it wide?? Either way, I'm still sucks to the max seeing myself doin so badly in academic. That was the only best thing I can be proud of during school time. *Sigh*


Just before falling asleep, this sudden thought popped into mmy mind --> How lucky I am if I'm still a high school girl with nothing to worry about. I'll be coming back home wearing my light blue skirt uniform (that wasn't my uniform actually but I'm quite envy girls who wear that bcos my uniform ugly to the max). I'll come back home happily after having so much fun and laughter in school and a small pile of homework that is waiting for me to have my hands on. I'll hug my mom first and check out what I'm going to have for lunch. Mon will prepare some food that I like and my tummy will be groaning, wanting me to satisfy them badly. After finishing the delicious meal, I'll go take my bath and do my homework. I won't need to take a nap because I have enough sleep yesterday to keep me energized the whole day. In less than 3 hours, I'll be able to finish my homework except 1 or 2 tough questions on add maths, I'll ask my friend, Fongy tomorrow. Feeling a bit tired, I went to watch tv. Haha, the taiwanese game show is fun. It's fun to see the guy in skirt. Ei.. why my stomach groaning one?? I look at the clock, it's 7 pm now. Mom preparing dinner, I quickly lay out the plates and spoons, and bros will be taking the dish to the table. During dinner, bros will be disturbing me, teasing me with a guy in school, parents will be laughing at our childishness. =P After dinner, do revision, watch tv again and do some casual talking with parents and I'll be ready to go to bed, dreaming of my Prince Charming. --> the life of a high school girl, no stress, no worries, no sleeping late.. Why didn't I cherish them when I was one?? People will only regret when they lost them..


I guess it's time for me to go study. Don't want to fail my Consti Paper on Wed. Good luck to u guys who are having exam tomorrow. Have fun studying. If you don't, just follow what Aaron did, telling himself that he likes studying, he likes studying..


Chiaoz and Peace Outz.
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Sunday, September 25, 2005
Happy Birthday to my darling sis, Jasmyin!!!!!!!!
I just read Kennysia's blog. He wrote a very very sweet entry for his gf, Nicole who is in Australia now. A long-term relationship, difficult for both parties, ey?? Luckily I'm not having one right now. I'm not sure whether mine will last if we are in the same boat.. Anyways, I'm not writing this entry about relationship. He gave me this super good idea on what to write on my blog today and so here goes..


HAPPY BIRTHDAY JASMYIN DARLING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


If you consider yourself close to me and you're at least in beta year and above, then you should know this special girl who born today 19 years ago by the name JASMYIN.


History:


Jasmyin is this girl from Taiping who is in PE01 last year. I know her in CF but wasn't close to her. I guess the reason was because we didn't have the same group of friends. I used to hang out with the "EP gang"(it doesn't exist anymore =<) and while she hang out with her own gang --> PE01. We knew each other in CF but just like I said she didn't come to CF often enough for me to know her well. =P


In my Alpha year, besides 1st sem, NOC3 was the best period of my Alpha time which I got to know more CF members and be closer to them. Jasmyin was one of them and not forgetting Jessica as well. (Jess is going to kill me if I leave her out =P) NOC3 brought us together, helping us to know each other better and share secrets together as well. ;) The 3 of us form a trio/threesome. People always saw us hang out and chill together. Let's just say with both of them around, I was never lonely.


Practices were fun but the free time was even more fun. That's the time that we could crap and did stupid stuffs. I was using my current phone that day. This girl Jasmyin took my phone and go around to snap people's pictures. Haha~~ It's so hilarious to see them, people would be posing like mad. I still remember George taking the fake sword and posing like a knight, Ben calling himself a handsome guy, Joash calling himself budak bodah/budak sial, Tze Seong wearing the weird big specs and many more. These pictures are just way good. Some of them are still storing in my phone. Haha~~


A big part of my memories that I have with Jasmyin is during NOC3 practice. She's a friendly girl who make friends very easily. She's close to a lot of people and Apple is one of them. I still remember both of them talked in Hokkien all the time and I never understood. =P Poor Louis was bitten by Jasmyin all the time, you could see the blueblack sometimes but it was funny to see that. We call that as "lovebite". Just imagine Louis was bullied by a girl shorter than him. =P Another person that I must mention is Justyin. The reason is simple, both of them look like siblings. ^_^


Do you have any idea when a bunch of girls gather together what'll they be doing?? BINGO, you hit the JACKPOT!! You're right, they will be TALKING and GOSSIPPING!! =P During NOC3 practice, when it's not our turn, the three of us will share stories and secrets. You know girls.. they are emo sometimes, not knowing what to do, when regarding "certain" stuffs. That's why we share it out, hoping to find a sollution that will make everyone happy and that's how is it. I remember saying a lot of silly stuffs based on my feelings that time which are not true anymore now. XD She too has her secrets that I can't share it here. Shh..


After introducing how nice, how friendly is it. I still haven't introduced her "greatness" yet. Yeap yeap.. listen carefully, especially guys, don't try to tackle her or disturb her, she might give you a karate kick right on your face anytime. She is a Karate BLACK BELT!! That's why never ever try disrespecting her, if not, you might lose your fatherhood. *evil laughter* A very good example?? Louis is the guy that you should meet. =P


There's basically the memories I have with her. But thanks to all these memories, she is the GIRL that I can call her "MY SISTER". Not many girls give me the sister feelings as she does, that shows how amazing she is. With her bright eyes, with her sweet smile, with her charming laugh and with her cute look, she's just one good friend that no one should miss. She's a girl who close to my heart, a girl who shares my problem and secrets, a girl who I know I can rely on if I have any problem, a girl who is tough, a girl who has strong faith in GOD, a girl who is my close friend forever, a girl who I know no-matter-how-long-we-don't-meet-we-will-still-be-very-close, a girl who I'll love forever because she's always so sincere and so true to me.


This darling, special and unique gal is in Cyber right now. I guess she's the friend that I miss most in Cyber. Jas, if Cyber doesn't fit you, welcome back to Mlk. There's always me and Jess to welcome you back here. =D


I <3 you gal, a lot. In this very special day of yours, I wish you will be happy and may all your birthday wishes come true. I wish I'm able to go Cyber to meet you to celebrate your birthday with you. If it isn't for the final, I should be gatecrashing in Cyber now. =P But it doesn't matter, I'll be seeing you soon enough. Can't wait to check you out and see there's any difference on you or not. Miss our dinner dates together. =P


Miss ya, <3 and GOD bless you on this special day of yours. (",)
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Thursday, September 22, 2005
struggling to study.. =(
I can't seem to study right now and I don't know why. The subject isn't that boring but when I look at the tiny tiny fonts on my textbook, I feel like sleeping. Why?? Why is this happening to me?? Final is just around the corner, I can't let myself continue like this?? What should I do?? Dear GOD, please help me, please?? Aiks..
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Monday, September 19, 2005
my parents are back~~ ^_^
This morning, when I look at my safe which is still in my old room, there's this thinking strucked into me:
Sometimes after things happen, there's no turning back. And something, which related to all these happenings, are best to keep it somewhere safe so that you can bury it deeply at your heart, never strung any of your memory strings again..


Mom and dad are back. I'm glad they are back here safely. I miss them lots and I'm sure they miss me too. I'm their only daughter after all. ;) Their trip to Hong Kong isn't very fruitful. They didn't buy much stuffs. Mom only bought some keychains and hershey choclates back. Yummy~~ CS got what he wants. He got his chinese chess, which is sort of 3D form like. I don't know how to describe but it's just cool when you look at the chinese chess. ^_^ The coolest part of her trip to Hong Kong is that she went to Disney Land. So nice.. I want to go.. Dad told me he went for a ride on Space Mountain. *Sniff Sniff* I want to go too.. Dad also said that don't go there for now because there's not mcuh things there so better go in 2 to 3 years time when it's fully developed. Oh yeah, mom also said that things are super expensive in Hong Kong too. Aiks~~


Many people are getting sick these days. Final's near, hope everyone will take good care of themselves, especially the "someone" that still doesn't take good care of himself after having a few people nagging him.. =P Am worried about BK, wonder is he alright or not.. Really hope he doesn't scratch any itchy parts. Stay strong, bro, alrites??


GOD blesses you for the rest of your day and don't forget to go for the last CF meeting for the semester tomorrow. (",)
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Sunday, September 18, 2005
home alone??
CP version of home alone:


I'm back at home for the weekend, the first weekend that I'm at home while my parents are not. They went for a holiday and left the 3 of us behind. Well.. at least there are so many cakes and breads for us to eat, we wouldn't be starved to death. I'm just kidding here. Mom has everything ready for us plus my bro has his car, there's no way we of us getting hungry at all. Thanks mom. ^_^


Ever since me and my bro start studying in Malacca, it's quite a rare scene of 3 of us gather together having a proper meal. My bro, CW will be busy going out with my friends and as for my younger bro, CS, he will either be in tuition(he's havin his PMR soon) or he will just be busy with his scout activities. As for me, I'm the only one always left at home. *Sigh* I'm just glad that I won't need to set up any traps just to catch the two bad guys. =P


This few days I just realized I'm getting fatter and fatter. My arms, waist,and thighs are getting flabbier and flabbier. I realized that when I find it difficult to wear my jeans. I have to squeeze and squeeze and squeeze my body into it. Can you imagine how suffocating it is?? Looks like I have to go on diet..


I got a few cuts here and there again, especially on my feet. Not that I fall down easily, I just.. I don't know how or why I got them also. It's a puzzle to me sometimes.. But then it doesn't hurt at all, so it doesn't matter I guess. =)


My god bro, Bk is having chicken pox now.. Joel took him to the hospital and gave him medicine. Thanks Joel for your kindness. I hope he's alright. Bk, don't scratch the itchy parts okay, just leave it there. I'll promise to pary for you..


I guess that's all from me. Don't know what to write already. Good luck in preparation for you final. GOD bless.
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Wednesday, September 14, 2005
Hmm.,. a super long entry I assume??
Things happen when you least expected, be it accident or relationship. Always ready that you might be facing danger, appreciate whatever is around you and cherisht that GOD allow you to survive the next day, enjoying the warm sunshine and the cooling breeze.


I was supposed to blog yesterday but well.. I'm just so unfocused, I can't bring myself to update my boring blog. I guess not much people will be complaining of me not updating my blog, my life is not that interesting after all. Anyways, I do have one or two interesting things that happens in my life or should I say other people's life which I want to blog about so that I can hold on to all these happy memories in the future.


Theatre class:


The threatre class, which is a co-curriculum acitivity that the university offers is a really cool class. Yeap, you heard me saying that, I'm telling you the threatre class is COOL. There's a few CF members in the threatre class: Deric, Mark, Stef, Vijay, Jonathan, Justyne, Jason and Tze Seong(hope I didn't leave out any of their names). Now can you see how cool the threatre class is now?? ;) They are having the performance in the main hall. As a hard-core fans of the CF member, I'll definitely go support them right?? And so, with a few friends we reached the venue:Main Hall 15 mintues before it starts and I saw a lot of CF members were waiting outside there. "This is just like another CF gathering, just that it's only 1 day earlier!!" quoted from Rebecca senior, which is very very true indeed. But let's not talk about who I met there and what we talked about. It's not the main issue here anyways.


We settled ourselves in the main hall and ready for the drama to begin. Mark, who's in black shirt and black pants and look superbly smart, standing in front and ready to give his direcor speech. (yeah yeah, the best actor for the acting night didn't act, directing instead. =P) I guess it's just a piece of cake to him and Stef after involving in NOCs. He's the director for the last NOC after all. The opening was cool, with Jasan playing the guitar and Tze Seong playing the drum-like-thingy, the drama begins.. I'm not a good story-teller, so get the information for those involve instead. But I can give you the review from what I have seen. I specially recommended the guy played "Ryan", very very funny indeed. I had a good laugh from the beginning to the end. I never expect them to be this good, can really give them two thumbs up. Ooppss.. I forgot to tell you guys something important, the title is called "Fell in love with you step-sis", so you guys can just imagine how "corny" it is. Go figure. =P


CF day:


Tuesday, the day I look forward the most in a week. Reason?? It's CF-day!! It's the day I see my friends, all those familiar faces that I seldom see in the campus. Aiks~~ Law School is so deserted, pity me for being stucked in there. Let's stop pitying me and go back to CF day alrites?? Andrew was playing for yesterday's music practice, was glad that he could still play despite of what happening to him few days ago. After the worship, Brother Raj, who is Vijay's blood-related brother was invited by CF, to give a talk on "Heart SMS" in CF. Yeap yeap. I wasn't in a good mood yesterday so I wasn't prepared to listen to anything. But then his talk caught my attention. I'm able to listen to what he said even though I was disturbing whoever was sitting around me yesterday. Sorry fellars, you guys are just unlucky to sit around me when I'm in bad mood. I tend to disturb people so that I can cheer up myself. *Saddist CP smirks evilly* Poor Wayne kena "sabo" by bro Raj but it's just so so so funny.


Guess what's the climax of yesterday's event?? It's the selling of NOC3 DVDs and VCDs!! This is the moment which every CF-ers have been waiting for, especially those who involved in NOC3. *in touching tone* Finally, finally for those months that we have been patiently waiting, finally for those dreams that we have fulfilled, finally for those times that we have missed, we finally got hold a glimpse of our memories which are waiting to be refreshed from time to time. Just for you, NOC3 CDs, all the waitings were worth, all the frustration and impatient gone off when the moment you arrives. You are the sunshine, the raindrop and the snow of my life. Without you, my life turns from colour to black and white. Without you, the birds stop chirrping and the butterflies stop flying. Therefore, your existence brings all things alife once more.. "CP, stop it stop it, you have gone too far." my concisou pulls me back in reality again. Sorry folks for tolerating such nonsense with me. =P Anways, I bought the NOC DVD. When I arrived in my room, Huiyin was playing hers on her com. All those memories really come back. Yeap yeap, I miss those time. I miss the threesome that we formed back then --> Jessica, Jasmyin and me. Jasmyin, I miss you lots, gal. =(


Okays, that's all from me. Tired of typing already. =P Have a good day everyon. (",)

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Monday, September 12, 2005
postin postin postin
Some people break promise all the time and I'm that kind while some people break promise without realising it, are u that kind??


I told myself I'm not going to blog today, going to blog tomorrow instead. Let's just say something bothers me a lot, my conscious told me to blog. It said, "blog CP, blog." Well, and there you go, seeing my fingers typing swiftly on the keyboard, listening to the typing sound and blogging with an "emo" mood. How I wish there's a smile plaster to my face so I can cheat everyone telling them I'm happy and there's fairy tales everywhere. Anyway, let's just skip all this craps and go straight to my "emo" post:


Today has been a weird day for me. My mood has been swinging from forward to backward, then right to left, very very uncertain. I guess this "emo" virus has invaded into my system and multiplying itself in a super fast speed. Anyone has any antivirus that works in human body, I need a dose of it so that I can feel better. Perhaps somebody can lend me super glue, glue my heart to a place where happiness and joyfulness fill that place.


What is love?? Love is a many splendid things. I still remember Justyne saying that during NOC III when acting as Pumbaa. Well, am still puzzling what love is. Why people actually fall in love?? Why is people crazy and crave for love?? I'm not refering the types of love which give people no trouble alright?? I know you get what I mean. Yeap yeap, that's the love I mean, the love between couples, the love that will cause them to do crazy and stupid stuffs sometimes. When I ponder on these questions, I always get lost. Should I or should I not fall in love in the first place?? Should I or should I not get a boyfriend in the first place?? Sometimes when you think about it, it's not getting someone falling in love with you difficult, sometimes it's the part that you don't know how to get along with him difficult. Let's just assume that you do know how, the emotions will still influence your relationship. Let's just stop this topic here..


Now this is a staring of a new topic, which is the review of the "Charlie and the Choclate Factory". I went to watch this movie this afternoon with a friend who do not wish to disclose his/her name here or at least I don't feel like doing so. The movie to me is a funny whacky movie which I give two thumbs up. It's everything that I thought is should be. I'm glad that they didn't change much of the storyline, except adding some plots here and there to make the movie more interesting. Willy Wonka, acted by Johnny Depp is a pretty weird and interesting character. I won't want to come across him on real life though, it would be quite freaky for me. I don't think I'm ready to meet a person with such personality yet. That will be super duper strange for me. I'm not sure which spoil brat will I turn into. I guess I'll most likely to turn out be like Veruca, the spoil brat which the parents give her everything. Hopefully I'm not. *shrrug* Let's just say picture speaks a thousand words and watching the movie worths a million words.


I just realized I didn't had my dinner yet. Not feeling really hungry because I just had some fruit juice in Surau. I guess if I'm hungry, the bottle of mineral water which is standing still on my table will work for me. I can always drink water to ease my hunger. Just imagine it as warm creamy yummy mushroom soup, that always work. Reason of me not eating my dinner?? Go figure yourself, not going to answer here. I think I should start finding constant dinner partners which won't fail me unless they have emergencies. I still remember last sem how Dan ended to be my dinner partner. I need this kind of dinner partner that ease up my problem on who I should eat with. That will really lighten my burden. Haha~~ we'll see who's the unlucky victim. =P


Happy Birthday to Shih Wern!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


Nites people, I'm going to sleep now. Chiaoz~~
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Saturday, September 10, 2005
a quiet Saturday morning
Today is a Saturday morning, a quiet Saturday morning in Malacca. All my housemates are not in their room. Alphas who don't go back home during the weekends have gone for their exams. Seniors, whose houses are near enough to go back every week, have all gone home except Chun Li. Yeah, the house is quiet without them and I'm enjoying this serenity now. Shh~~ Don't make a noise..


Haha~~ Lame beginning of an entry. I'm getting lamer and lamer as time goes by. Sounds so weird, just can't imagining myself talking like that, I sure can't last for 5 minutes one. It;s just so too weird. But whatever i wrote up there is true nonetheless. To make myself more pathetic, I don't have any plan for today at all. My housemates did ask me to go shopping with them but.. I'm kind of lazy to go, rather stay at home and study. Final's coming near and I haven't started studying all. Sigh~~ How am I going to pass?? Someone please tell me how??


I slept late yesterday night after coming home from Jonker Street. Met 2 of Andrew's friend, Aaron Wee's friends. Their names are Ah Cap and Matthew. Both guys are nice fellows, at least they haven't do any extreme illegal stuffs in front of me yet, so I ass.u.me they are nice. =P I feel bored going to Jonker actually, the stuffs are same every week and I never get to buy anything that I want from there. CP, stop complaning. You should be glad that you have the opportunity of stepping out from Bukit Beruang on a Friday night. *my conscious starts scolding me* After arriving home, I start trying out the Cinema Tycoon which I downloaded sometimes ago. It was an easy game but I got addicted to it easily. I spent 4 hours playing it, almost fallen asleep too.


Caution: Kids, it's dangerous to sleep with your com on, especially if it's a labtop and you put it on your bed. You might not know what's going to happen on your poor head or to you poor labtop. Beware..


I guess that's all from me now. I better get back to study and doing my assignment. If not, someone is going to hurt badly real soon. =P


Chiaoz~~
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Thursday, September 08, 2005
read and u will know
Emptiness is within my heart.. The satisfying happiness is no where to be seen. It's as though the world has left me alone or is it vice versa?? People around me are laughing happily, things have been beatuiful for them for they know what they want. Looking at them. my heart envies them, how I wish my heart is as light as they are. I try to be a part of them, showing my smile all the time, even though I know how fake it is, even though I know how insincere it is. I can't afford to let anyone knows I'm wearing a mask, that face that disguises my real self, the real self that I hesistate to let people know. After all, I'm just a self-concious girl that fearing bad remarks from people. The thing is no matter how hard I try, the emptiness is still there, expanding in a fast pace until I'm lost, don't know what to do. I'm frustrated at myself until the extent that I'm hurting people around me who cares for me a lot. Heart's feeling guilty, hands shaking nervously after taking drugs, words that hurt people flowing out nonstopping and tears streaming down for repentance, that's just prove I have no self control on myself once again, a spoil brat that's troubling everyone around me..


Haha~~ how was the emo crappy thingy I wrote up there?? Emo enough to freak you guys out?? Do I have the talent to write fiction as well?? Don't worry about the content I wrote up there, it's just for fun writing. There's absolutely nothing wrong with me. I'm happy with the way I am. ;)


I won't blog about CF on Tuesday because there's someone blogging it already. You can just visit other CF members' blogs and see how many of them blog about it. =P


Getting tired now, I better crash into the bed. Nites nites everyone out there. Cheers~~
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Tuesday, September 06, 2005
English is a weird language..
Just posting something on my blog.. for fun. If you don't want to waste your time, don't read it. If you're very free, want to spend a few minutes reading this, go ahead, by all means. =P Can't wait for CF tonight, it's Acting Night. Wonder what kind of funny stuffs with happen in CF tonight. ^_^



There is no egg in the eggplant; No ham in the hamburger. And neither pine nor apple in the pineapple.


And while no one knows what is it in a hot dog, you can be pretty sure it isnt canine.


English muffins were not invented in England;French fries were not invented in France.


We sometimes take English for granted. But if we examine its paradoxes we find that Quicksand takes you down slowly.


Boxing rings are square.


And a guinea pig is neither from Guinea nor is it a pig.


Sweetmeats are candies, while sweetbreads,which arent sweet, are meat.


If writers write, how come fingers dont fing.


If the plural of tooth is teeth, One goose, two geese. So one moose, two meese? Is cheese the plural of choose?
One mouse, two mice; one louse, two lice, One house, two hice?
Shouldnt the plural of phone booth be phone beeth?


If the teacher taught, why didnt the preacher praught, Or the grocer groce, or hammers ham?


If a vegetarian eats vegetables, What the heck does a humanitarian eat?


Why do people recite at a play, Yet play at a recital?


Park on driveways and drive on parkways?


Ship by truck, and send cargo by ship?


Have feet that smell and noses that run?


How can the weather be as hot as hell on one day And as cold as heaven on another


You have to marvel at the unique lunacy Of a language where a house can burn up as it burns down, and in which you fill in a form by filling it out.
And a bell is only heard once it goes!


How can a slim chance and a fat chance be the same, while a wise man and a wise guy are opposites?


English was invented by people, not computers. And it reflects the creativity of the human race. ( Which of course isnt a race at all )


That is why you get in and out of a car, and on and off a bus.


When the stars are out they are visible. But when the lights are out they are
invisible.


And why is it that when I wind up my watch it starts, But when I wind up this poem, it ends.


So, isnt English a weird language?
posted by sippy @ 4:14 PM   1 comments

Monday, September 05, 2005
A meter in your heart??
Have you got a meter in your heart which measures everything that you do or other people do??


I have this certain meter myself, which is called the ... "missing meter".


I'm sure if you have ever liked a person, you will know the feeling of missing right?? Just recalled your secondary school, the tuition guy/girl that you have a crush on, you only get to see the person once a week and you look forward for the day to come??


Imagine that this "missing meter" that you had within you. One side is E:Empty and the other end is F: Full. The day you see him/her, the meter decreases until the very end of E because you get to see him/her, you're satisfied. That night, you had a sweet dream without him/her bothering you into your deram. =P 2nd day, 3rd day, 4th day slowly passes by. You begin to feel unsatisfy, the missing meter, just like thermometer, the mercury will rise slowly.. slowly.. slowly and *poof* it almost reaches the other edge, F. That will be the most unbearable day for you. Luckily, it's the day before your tuition day is. The very very nex day, before you see him/her, the mercury which is already reaching F exceeds the limitm your meter bursts. Your heart is beating superbly fast and you know your "missing meter" will be satisfied in just another few moments. And there you go, looking at the face that you have missed so much, knowing that he/she's alright, talking there smiling very confidently/sweetly, you are once more satisfied.


Okays, I know I'm talking crap. I just want to emphasize on the point that there is this "missing meter" within you and me, at least I hope I'm correct. This "missing meter" can be any meter, doesn't only apply on this area. For certain groups of people, especially couples. Their meters will reach the top faster than other people, at least 2, 3 times faster. Hmm.. I don't know why I'm talking about this also, must be the conversation that I had someone. =P
That's my philosophy I had right now.


There's so many downloaded games that give me so much fun. I'll like to introduce you the games "betrapped" and "dinner-dash". I felt so much fun playing them. These games might seem childish to many of you who's expert in playing "DOTA". For simple-minded girl like me who hates violence and killing, this game suits me pretty well, at least I had the chance to be super childish for a while, talking to myself, talking to the characters on the com.


I had enough of crapping for today, am feeling tired after typing for this long entry that seems to be very short or it is vice versa. =P Adios~~ Can't wait to meet up with Jess for pasar malam. ^_^
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Saturday, September 03, 2005
sometimes, somewhere, somehow n someone
Yipeeeee~~~~~ I'm at home right now, enjoy the fast connection which I don't get in ep except early in the morning. If I tell you I wake up early in the morning to enjoy fast connection, will you believe me?? I like to linger in my room, switch on my computer, go surfing for a while. That explains why I'm always late for class (tsk tsk~~ CP is naughty) =P


I'm feeling much better now. My sore throat seems to be better and my voice is gaining back. CP is talkative once more, feeling sorry for my poor dad and mom who have no choice but listen to me yapping all day. *shaking head* I just love going back home after a whole tiresome week. There's no place better than home (except heaven of course) where your parents will pamper you to the max. Luv ya mom n dad, luv ya bro. ^_^


There's some pretty interesting events going on in my life. I feel like I have to jot down before forgetting them. The first one is May Pin's birthday on National Day. We went to Sampan to celebrate it. It was cool nonetheless, with the SPB-ians who have weird intellectual thinking, which I'm always easily amused and impressed when listening to them.. Anyway, about 20 of us went to Sampan in a few cars. Thanks to the drivers who drove us there, really really appreciated you guys. Sampan's a nice place. There's a beach behind the area. Those lovey-dovey couples went and took a walk before the meal was served and after finishing the meal. Everyone seems to enjoy themselves that night and I'm gald the place wasn't crowded. I hate going to crowded places. I'll feel stuffy there, lack of oxygen mar.. The food is not bad and I heard interesting talks from them. Most importantly, I'm glad the lady herself is happy and she looks good on that day too. ^_^ Too bad they didn't throw Carlos into the sea that day but it seems like he's not in the mood also. Never mind lar, Carlos was lucky that day. If not, we could see our honourable publisher being a wet ducky. XD


The next day, CP, being a super good girl went to her CG, which combined with the Oreo's CG. It was cool, the two groups were cooking lagasana. I don't know how to pronounce the word "lagsana" and Sylvester kept correcting me. Thanks a lot, dude~~ =P I went there late, was overslept. So I went there with Joel and Andrew who finished their tests at 9. I wasn't feeling well that time so I wasn't talking much that night. I felt guilty though because I didn't help at all on that day.*guilty guilty* The girls were helping to chop the carrot, onion and whatsoever. I was hiding in the room playing with the computer. Sorry.. cooking just isn't my thing. The lagsana came out to be super nice yu know. Jonathan is a good cook. Yummy~~ I still feel hungry thinking about it. Mommy, can I go eat lagsana tonight?? I had fun that night listening to Stef telling the "Yomama" jokes from the internet. You can check out the link from Andrew's blog.


I hope everyone will have a good weekend and enjoy yourself ya. I'm enjoying mine to the max. Oh yeah, don't forget to study for finals too. Till then, byes byes~~ =D


P/s. Thanks jonathan for lending me your antivirus software. Thanks a lot.
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